Quote Of The Day: "The gods trembled at what they had made, fear shown in each immortal eye as they beheld the birth of man" ~Unknown

I cant say that yesterday wasnt an interesting day towards its end. Normal for the most part up till the evening after an earthquake sounded off the Oregon coast and while I was at work in a call center that can house about 500 people they shut down all our calls and told us we were to evacuate the building and get as high as possible because a Tsunami was to hit in less than an hour. Of course there was a certain amount of disbelief, like it was some kind of drill, and a bit of panic as well. In the end I merely made my way home, as I had decided to walk to work that day, without the least bit of actual fear, a bit of aprehension but no fear. Whether the lack of fear was born from a sense that nothing would really happen or if it was hte contentness with life is hard to say, though I dont think it was the latter. Well that and the fact that a Tsunami's wall of water travels roughly around 80-100mph depending on the quake and the force driving the water and it happened some 80-90 miles off the coastline, so we'd have about an hour at most. In essence, what was going to happen was going to happen and the simple fact is that there is nothing we can do to control that, exceptattempt to get high enough where we hope it wont quite catch us. No use to panic and get in peoples way, merely hope that today isnt your day. Funny though cause work was trying toa dvise us to head towards the Church of Latter Day Saints and im a Catholic. Yeah yeah, I know I dont believe but I do go to church, ocassionally confession, and I bear a cross on my chest usually, its a symbol of mankinds faith in something, even if that faith is misplaced it speaks of our ancient comitment to something greater than ourselves. Now in truth im a believer of the opposite, im a believer in the power of mankind and not of some higher being, for we have in each of us the potential to be the lords of our own creation, the creator may be a hell of a being but it is we, the creation, that is greater for the creator is who it is but we are something different, newer, better, and far superior. This is not true for all creations, but it is for us.
I was going to make some points about some of the many follys and mockerys mankind has made in spite of itself but i'd rather end on this slightly upturned note.

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Quote Of The Day: "The common man is made of blood and bone, strong backs and weak minds Vedimeer. But it is we, those who dare to face the truth of the world and harness its magics and knowledge for our own that are exceptional, it is we that are made of stronger stuff of the mind." ~Lord Overon Minite I (Hearts Madness -The Overon Chronicles Volume 1-)

Well it seems we have a tenative title for the first Novel now, and no it isnt doen yet despite the fact that I said I wouldnt name it until it was done but I now have the entire thing worked out in my mind and it shouldnt be long now. I'm still looking desperately for a co-author and I think that it'll be Lips unless someone else would like to take a stab at it, remembering that whoever it is will have to be my partner, that means im not the boss im just as equal as the other person male or female. I took away the chat box there cause no one was using it often enough to warrant leaving it. If you want to leave a comment you can do so at the bottom of each post by clicking on "comments" or you can e-mail me at Quixote_Thoughts@yahoo.com. Looks like I might get promoted at work again, and I got another $00.25 raise again which puts me at about $8.50 per hour and im gonna be doin about 50+ hours at work for the next couple of weeks or so, still not workin saturdays there though.
Not sure if its the time of year, my age, something in the air, or what but man its been seeming more and more lonely lately. I handle it in stride like I do all things but it just seems to be on my mind more lately, which can sometimes be depressing. I guess that I'm lonely all of the time really but its just lately that ive been noticing it a whole hell of a lot more and knowing there isnt much I can do about it really infuriates me. Friend Sex or a one night stand wouldnt be so bad right now either, just for reference friend sex is basically friends with benefits type of relation and in my case thats FEMALE ONLY. Got nothing against being gay, just not my thing. Well I guess thats really all I have for the moment but ill be back im sure.


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Quote Of The Day: "...How do you measure a year in the life? How about love?...." ~Rent (1996 broadway musical by Johnathan Larson)

Hello all, I return to you now on the the dawning of what proves to be an interesting summer. At long last I prepare to leave my home, my education begins, my closest friends and I seperate and it may be for good, a 16 year search for love will soon be ground to a halt to pursue knowledge and education, and I continue to keep a secret only Mr. Happy and Lips know. I face it all with great optimism. Oh, and I take a trip to Boston to visit Starfire for what might be my last vacation for a long time. Things are changing and for once I welcome the change. Right now im working and enjoying myself. I have late dinners with friends a lot, I play D&D quite often, I go to the beach and ponder things with friends, I have a new car which I like, but somehow things just dont seem right and I have that same lonely feeling I have always had and depression gets worse everyday though I fight back. I merely keep looking forward to the horizon.
I'm hoping that sometime ill find the time to go out with friends and drink a little and dance, I havent been dancing in a long time and im really bad at it anyway but I enjoy it. Sometimes you just need to get out there and have fun without too many thoughts of love, lust, romance, loss, school, hate, or anything else that can cloud the mind from enjoying a moment in time that doesnt consist of trying to voerthink the situation and just stop you from having fun with the people your with, enjoying their company, laughing that special laugh that comes from somewhere inside you and gives you this endorphined filled feeling, I look forward to the dar when someone, friend or lover or whatever can convince me to try something new that will allow me to just sit back and smile to myself and let go of this super tight hold I have over my life. Dont get me wrong the hold I have serves me well and I can control a lot of things to make my day to day life easier and I am amply rewarded for it by life but sometimes you dont want total control and in order to relax you need to let go and take it easy without having to be so uptight all the time. Sometimes people think im too uptight, that im arrogant, or that im too serious and most of the time I just ignore it but honestly that so isnt me and the people im close too will tell you that I cna be fun, I can be very happy and an enjoyable person to be around who likes to joke and flirt but that I get too caught up in things and I tend to overdramatize a lot. SO with any luck sometime ill get a chance to just go out somewhere with friends and enjoy a night or so of simple fun. So I think thats it for tonight, no big long speeches about life and how you should live it and a limited amount of self glorification, just a simple little post tonight. G'night all.


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