Dusk Fell Upon A Blood Red Sea As The Traveler Stood On The Cliff And Defiantly Laughed At The Setting Sun

Quote Of The Day: "A fine quotation is a diamond on the finger of a man of wit, and a pebble in the hand of a fool." -French Proverb

Ahh yes another fine little piece of mind to sit upon the minds of my readers. I would ask how many of you are wearing diamonds and how many have pebbles but im afraid of the answer. But on to more important issues. Today was a rather interesting day but I think that I had best talk about yesterday so that some of today might be understood. Yesterday (tuesday) was an average day for the most part, that is up until the afternoon.

Let me introduce two new characters to all of you, though I thik I had a previous name for one of them. The first is a rather neurotic individual that very much reminds me of Benedict (from Much Ado About Nothing) and a combination of Hamlet and Iago. I thought long about a nickname for him and at long last "Chiuaua Man" seems the most fitting do to his nervous nature and willingness to bitch and talk. The second is one I have known for quite somtime and A#@h&le seems the most fitting description of him but I think that a more appropriate nickname is deserving of this individual so we shall refer to him as "Horse Boy".

At any rate, I happened upon Chiuaua Man and Horse Boy and we began our usual BS'ing session. This amounts to nothing more than discussing a wide range of things from day to day life, to politics and all other things in the great universe. But yesterday we somehow came to the subject of Horse Boys cinematic project, which is a complete and utter waste of the worlds precious energies and life giving breath to his worthless body. Well apparently Horse Boy is using camera equipment which came from the crap hole college I attend and which Chiuaua Man is president of the department in which Horse Boy is renting the equipment from. Chiuaua and Horse were arguing about how much of the project Chiuaua would be allowed to see and to make an arduously long story short, Chiuaua demanded the equipment be returned and Horse accused Chiuaua of releasing to much info about his UNCOPYRIGHTER project to the general public. This was about the time I saw an opportunity to anger Horse (believe me the stupid $#@*er deserves it) and so I took it. Basically I hinted to him that I intended to tell everyone the plot of his script, of which I have intimate knowledge, because he thinks someone is out to steal his ideas. Now at this point I should introduce you other readers to another reader, this new reader is the one whom Horse thinks is out to steal his ideas. We shall call our newest reader Dalamar, because of his personalities resemblence to a character out of a series we read. Horse is totally paranoid that Dalamar is out to get his ideas and make them his own.

Getting away from yesterday we move on to today. Well Horse approached me, after telling me yesterday that "Were fucking at war man, its on. Dont fuck with me!!" to which I could barely stop laughing in his moronic face. Well Chiuaua Man found me today and told me that Horse was planning on contacting some gay guy in high school that I supposedly know and trying to get everyone he knows to believe the gay guy and I together, he also said he was enlisting the help of our very own Angel. While this is extremely laughable, since I dont even know what guy he's talking about, I think Horse would do well to let sleeping dragons lay. I refer, of course, to myself as the sleeping dragon. Horse could very well find himself knee deep in debt to the city, the state, and the federal government should I decide that I have been sufficeiently annoyed. I do believe he forgets what he has told me and the sufficient evidence he gave me because he believed me to be his trusted confidant. Angel would also do well to learn her lessons, though whether she is actually involved with Horse or not is debateable. Do not forget, my dearest Angel, the righteous anger of your Lord and what his far reaching hands are cabable of. It would be a shame to see a promising career in the military wasted because of a petty attempt at revenge by a sightless undereducated man. I, of course, make no threats and no offenses I merely point out that I am not without my defenses and those are things that I alone can do, much less what I am capable of with help from friends, family, aquaintences, and constituants.

Today was also the student awards ceremony, a time when students who have achieved excellence in certain departments are awarded. But this does not hold true for all departments here, especially that of the Theatre Department. Today any image of fairness among the students who dwell within the theatre department was shattered. A girl who could not be less deserving recieved the award for theatrical excellence by our fallen god of a professor. Last year the professors assistant and the student he "supposedly" (I have to say supposedly cause I havent personaly witnessed anything but it seems pretty clear) sleepign with each recieved an award. This year that award went to a human pig. Now I'm not just being insulting with that because this female individual resembles a pig in human form. She is round and plump like a little pot-bellied pig and has a unique squeal. At any rate Rescure Pig, as she has becoem known by many, recieved the award and when Mr. Happy decided to come to rehearsal I thought he was gonna blow a gasget(sp?). Mr. happy has convinced himself that, beyond any doubt, he and he alone deserved that award, and while that is up for debate he did deserve it more than her. This department has becoem nothing more than a competition for a petty professors attentions and an excuse to award those who are able to sufficently kiss ass. I am ashamed to have ever pledged my help to him or to the deptartment. I do hereby, for what its worth, curse any student who seeks to gain favor with this department or that professor through any means other than hard work.

But on to things of more pleasent natures. Dalamar is our newest reader and I think it only fare to share some things about him, some mis conceptions I had abotu him. At one point, not so long ago, I had a dark hatred of Dalamar and it is now that I gladly retract that hatred. It was unjustified, I believed him nothing more than a sniveling wyrm to our Theatre Professor, a man whos teaching abilities are limited to teaching only those that are practically willing to lick his...........hmmm..........shoes. But Dalamar is anything but, he is well educated individual with an obvious passion for life and a fire for theatre. He has all the qualities of a brilliant actor with the personality of the most loveable comedians and the wit of a philosopher. He reminds me very much of the less uptight version of Mr. Happy. Yes yes, I like Mr. Happy but he is rather uptight. Dalamar made a good point today, one that I take no offense by. He stated that my writing here is self serving and a glorification of myself and my thoughts, this is 100% complete truth. Here you all get to view the side of me that burns with passionate fire and is willing to burn any who cannot withstand the heat from my exalted flame. (man if that wasnt glorified I dont knwo what is!)

As many of you may have guessed, I have decided to omit certain goings on between myself and Starfire at her request. While my current feeligns towards her are mixes between divine anger and kindly forgiveness I figured that I am the more moral and ethical of the two of us and as such it is my duty to not betray her confidence, unworthy as it is somtimes. But I think with those previous statements I did get a nice, and well deserved, dig into her. Of course she will act as true lady and take it through gritted teeth.

I must say that with recent events I truly feel that beyond the shadow of a doubt that I am LORD SHAWN.

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Behind Him The Traveler Left Something Useless And Old, No Use Carrying Used Goods That Arent Worth Your Time

Quote Of The Day: "The strength of women comes from the fact that psychology cannot explain us. Men can be analyzed, women merely adored." -Oscar Wilde

One of my favorite authors and man who gives unbelievably accurate quotes, Oscar Wilde author of one of my favorite plays "The Portrait Of Dorian Grey". Today Mr. Wilde is giving us an opinion on women and I must say that I agree for the most part. For a man, it is easy to analyze other men and to try and figure one another out but when it comes to women we often find ourselves at a total loss. Now to those of you women who take that as a compliment and are smiling smugly, dont smile so quickly because it is my opinion that most women are incapable of logical or rational thought and are inherently doomed to over analyze things. I have not yet met the woman who can speak to me on a even logical level, although I've only met a few men who can carry an unfeeling conversation filled with 90% fact. With the possible exception of Angel, I have the large opinion that women are creatures that are not to be trusted and always held at arms length for fear of the knives they may inevitably place between your shoulder blades.

I now find myself standing on the edge of a decision. I would love to tell you all about recent events but there are those that were involved that would rather I not. However there opinion doesnt really matter that much and every fiber of me tells me to go ahead and spill it anyway. After all once a trust between two people has been broken what happens afterwards really doesnt matter. Well I may tell you sometime next week, for now I have some studying to do and on sunday some drinking to do. And in the words of Private Jackass "Bro's before ho's".

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Ahead A Path Began To Run Along The Side Of The Travelers And He Recognized It To Belong To An Angel, While A Star Lost Its Fire

Quote Of The Day: "Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful." -The Bible, Proverbs Ch. XXVII, v.6

Yeah yeah I know I know, I'm an Atheist using a biblical quote but it is possible for people to find wisdom in the bible without using it as a guide to every inch of life. However I am not entirely sure that this quote rings true all the way around. It seems to imply that one should prefer to be hurt by a friend rather than be flattered and kissed by an enemy. But given the choice I would take the enemy over the hurtful friend anyday. See, with an enemy you know that you may get hurt and you should even expect to be on the defensive. With a friend one expects comfort and wants to place their trust in them, so when they get hurt by a friend they can inflict more pain than an enemy. The overall message here is that with an enemy you can place a certain amount of trust in them but with a friend you should be cautious when it comes to trust because it is possible for them to place a knife directly into your back as you kneel before them and ask for comfort and help.

Anyway, moving on to other things. I went for a walk with Angel today, yeah yeah yeah I know what some of you have said and what the others are thinking "why? She's a *$%@*" yadda yadda yadda. Well to put it simply, when other supposed friends turned out to be arrogant self indulged simpletons Angel gave me words of comfort and advice. So keep your comments off the box and submit them only to me if you would. On another note, im afraid me may shortly be losing a reader. Starfire may soon be removing her gaze from this mighty writers words, for reasons that I will refrain from posting. But suffice it to say due to some extenuating circumstances the two of us may no longer be speaking and as such I would expect she would not wish to read here any longer. So again, thank you Angel.

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Leaving The Meadow, The Traveler Set Out Onto The Path Once More, Knowing He Had Left Behind Those Ideals Of Trust

Quote Of The Day: "Women are like fine wine. They all start out fresh, fruity and intoxicating to the mind and then they turn full-bodied with age until they go sour and vinegary and give you a headache."- Unkown Author.

Oh where to start today. I could start off with a lot of things I guess, most of them more crappy then the next. If I wanted just to talk about the good things going on then it would certainly be a very short post. But on the other hand id be here all night with the crappy. Lets talk about our quote first. It is the opinion of this author that this could not be more right or apt.

On second thought lets not talk about the quote, im just going to end up saying things I dont mean. No, lets talk, instead, about friendship tonight. Let us consider what friendship truly is. The fourth edition of the American Heritage Dictionary defines "Friendship" as The state of being friends; friendly relation, or attachment, to a person, or between persons; affection arising from mutual esteem and good will; friendliness; amity; good will.
While friendship is more than just that definition it is certainly no less, it has much to do with honor, respect, and the ability to speak kindly towards one another. I would like to elaborate more on what brings about my thoughts on this but for now I will not go into detail, not because of the other person but because I have that integrity where I do not believe the other person has. I will state that sometimes the fire of a star burns out and it becomes a void in space where as a fallen angel holds more honor and integrity than that star and its fire. Obviously I am trying to say something without saying it directly, take from it what you will. But getting back to our discussion on friendship. I would advise everyone, never trust somebody who doesnt understand you at least a little, never trust someone who doesnt trust you, and no supposed "friend" is worth your time if they are not mature enough to recognize simple friendship, especially when they mistake it for something more romatic which simply isnt the case. Life is simply too short to worry or care about the dramatic crap people spew, drama is for the stage and not for real life. I guess I just dont believe in varying levels of friendships. I believe in true friends, everything else are just aquaintences. What kinda sucks is when you find out that something you thought to be a friend is just an aquaintence. The difference is that friends think of something from both sides, they take your feelings into consideration not just their own. A friend will ask questions before making blatant stupid unfeeling comments that are TOTAL MISINTERPRETATIONS of what you might have said. God i'd love to rant and rave about this in more detail but I wont. Anyway take all that and think about it, im off to bed to have a terrible week that im sure will only hold more crap and stress that I dont need even though I wait until other peoples stressful times are over to give them fucked up news that amounts to total crap all in all. Goodnight.

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Quietly, In A Meadow, The Traveler Sat Meditating And Considering The Ideals Of Trust

Quote Of The Day: "Man was made when nature was but an apprentice, but woman when she was a skilfull mistress of her art."-Cupid's Whirligig

Okay I have absolutely no idea what "Cupids Whiligig" is but I did love this quote. I am not entirely sure I agree with it but I liked the symbolism in this none the less. It basically leads us to believe that man was the initial expeiment in creation and woman the final product. I agree that women posses many fine things that men do not, both in the scientific sense as well as in my own more romatisiscized ideas. Women think with both half of their brains where men only use one half, women have a higher pain threshold than men, women typically have a larger capacity for compassion, understanding, and forgiveness, women can bring life into the world, women are generally more agile than men. But we too have our own unique talents; men have the potential for muscle mass than women, men are typically capable of more logical thought patterns, men are generally better tactile learners, male leaders have been far more prevelant than women, men usually work better and can cope with groups, and a host of other things as well. But the point was that I liked the quote.

Last night I went to see "Jacque Brel Is Alive And Well And Living In Paris" and I must say I was utterly shocked at the extreme tackiness of it all. SOCC's theatre department in cooperation with the Dolphin Players attempted to put on a musical semi-dinner theatre which was a total fiasco. The food, while good, was being served by untrained waiters, the placings were very tacky, the table too tiny, the seating too much like sardines, and the coordination of it all untimed. What was worse was the play itself, which had no obvious coohearant standard plot structure. One might argue that the plot was non-linear but even non-linear have a major prevelant theme that ties the pieces together, where this had songs that may have pertained to a deeper meaning but no common theme was apparent to a typical audience. This was extremely dissapointing to me. I was to help usher but decided against it due to a large workload of studies on me at the moment. The hypocricy that is so very present in this department at SOCC is fast becmoing ridiculous. In this production there were five players total. The first is a very nice man who does a lot of tech work and I like him a lot but his mistakes were many and very veyr noticeable. Second was a younger gentleman whom I dont know but he had an extremely talented voice, though he did make a couple noticeable mistakes. Now when I say noticeable I mean that any audience member could tell, where as when I just say "mistakes" I mean that I notice them because I am an actor who is trained to see that kind of mistake in myself. Third was an older lady who did very well but the director obviously told her to supress her obviously powerful voice, which was a major mistake as it took away from the preformance as a whole. The younger lady whom I did not know, was very beautiful and talented but was given a part that was less than what she is capable of and I would like to have seen her in the other young ladies role because she certainly would have done better even with the few mistakes that she made. Last was the young lady who is currently dating her acting professor (the acting professor) at this institution and I have to say I wonder that she may have gained her part with his help. She was less than convincing in her first solo song and I was severely dissapointed with the fact that she and the other young lady were not in the opposite parts. This lady could have done quite well in a lesser role and her mistakes would not have been as apparent to me but as it was she wasnt convincing, made many mistakes relating to movement, and generally wasnt confident enough with her presence or with her voice. While I did think the actors did their best and made a good showing of it the overall show itself was atrocious at best and a total disaster and mockery to theatre at the worst. If this hadnt been an assignment from the acting proffesor for the classes im involved in I wouldnt have set foot in that show if they had payed me. But I conragtulate the actors for sticking it out and doing their absolute best with the directing and terrible choices that were made that were beyond their control.

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With Renewed Purpose The Traveler Looked To The Mountains Ahead, Knowing The Journey Was Long But Not Wanting To Waste A Single Moment

Quote Of The Day: Men are what their mothers raise them to be.- Ralph Waldo Emerson

A brilliant and talented writer gave us todays quote. That was my special Mothers Day Quote. I still havent decided whether Mothers Day is truly a day worth celebrating or whether its just something hallmark came up with in order to make more money, I guess if thats the case it still ahs some inherent good in it though.

Well the coming week should be an interesting one, stressful but interesting. Ive gotta go argue with the college about my student loans since I forgot to to turn in some paper work. Im going to give my former boss an ultimatum, either he pays me my wages (about $1500) or I turn him into the labor beareau. I'm also starting rehearsals for Anton Checkov's Swan Song, directed by my good friend Christopher Baird in his directing debut. Then im also starting my own directing of W.B. Yeat's Purgatory which Chris is also acting in along with Lips, this isnt my directing debut but it will be my most sucessful piece that I've directed yet. Then I have to make sure my bills get paid. I also have to go apply for a new job in a bunch of places. It's just going to be a long week, so dont be surprised if I dont post again soon but I will try.

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The Evening Sky Seemed to Reflect The Travelers Mind. Full Of Reds, Oranges, Pinks, And Other Colors of Immense Passion, Be They Sad Or Happy

Quote Of The Day: "Words are just words and without heart they have no meaning."-Chinese Proverb

This quote couldnt be more true if it wanted to. But its a sad fact that we do not always speak from our hearts or tell others what we perhaps should. Im not much for most new country music these days but there is a Garth Brooks song that I particularly like, I cant seem to recall the name, but the jist of it is that we should all tell people what we feel more often because there is a possiblility that tomorrow may never come. This is a nice sentiment and all but there are some of us that, in life, are doomed to be forever seen as the non-romantic type despite our immense love for romance, we may never be seen as a sexual entity but only because it has never been brought to our attention. So expressing ourselves to others may only result in less than happy respones. But I am not speaking from experience, only theory. I suppose that its like thinking about your parents as human beings that have the same desires as yourself, there are just some people that only consider you a friend and are incapable of being anything more. Now I know that these people are often good friends and people whom we have strong connections with but I highly highly advise you to rid your lives of such people. Anybody who is not willing to see you as a whole complete person with desires, wants, needs, and feelings that you yourself have is not worth your time or your friendship. I am not saying that completely platonic relationships are totally out of the question, im just saying that it is healthy to be able to discuss, with a FRIEND, your sexual feelings, fantasies, ect. and be able to listen to theirs in return. You should realize though that some relationships are destined to be platonic no matter how much you might like them to be more romantic. Try to learn to appreciate these relationships for what they are, also take into consideration that good things take time and all good things come to those who wait. Perhaps in time this may be something different you just have to wait for the right circumstances. Friends with benefits can be quite healthy so long as you willing to keep it semi-platonic and allow the other person to date at their lesiure. Sex is not something that should consume you but you should leave room for it in your life.

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Through THe Grey Iron Sky A Ray Of Light Punched Through To Shine Down On The Traveler And Give Him Strength Needed To Fight the Onslaught Of Darkness

Quote Of The Day: "There is another side to chivalry. If it dispenses leniency, it may with equal justification invoke control."
-Freda Adler

Oh I couldnt help but share that quote with all of you. I have not found anything more laughable or idiotic in my entire life, if ever I have been accused of posting a feminist type quote I must admit guilt on this one. This is the type of quote that can only come from a woman scorned or some over excited feminist who has no respect or idea of what chivalry in the modern age is truly about. So many consider out society to be quite advanced in its culture and its equality between sexes and races but I think that somewhere here we lost sight of what equality is. Now I may or may not anger some of you with some of the following statements which have to do with my views on equality and feminism. Equality is not where a woman can sue an all mens club for not letting her in. Equality is not when a woman can sue an all male college for not allowing her entrance. Equality is not a Native American casino which pays no federal or state tax and governs itself. Equality is not an African American attorney appealing to Congress because he/she believes that everyone of their like skin color should be payed a certain amount of money from the other taxpayers just because their ANCESTORS, NOT THEM, got royally screwed by someone I never met or knew. The sins of the father are not passed onto the son. We must be held accountable for our own actions and not those of people long dead with whom we have no true connection. Equality IS letting both gay and straight couples be allowed to marry. Equality IS allowing both men and women their respective organizations that can be only of one sex if that is what they wish. Equality IS colleges considering ALL applications fairly without bias towards sex or race (so long as that college is not all of one particular sex and is intended to be so do to its rules and stipulations) and not HAVING to take in so many of one sex or one race despite the outstanding creditials of better qualified candidates. Equality among the sexes IS a woman being payed the same amount for a job as a male doing the same work. Equality is a man being granted maternity leave the same as a woman despite the lack of physical effects. Equality is Pepsi including a Coke in every six pack, equality is Microsoft advertising for Macintosh, equality is this and equality is that. But in the end the world is NOT equal, and we have to live with that. We do need to improve our world, there is much work to be done but we WILL NOT achieve that by blaming one another or by attacking each others beliefs. While I am on the topic I would urge each of you, of voting age, to vote for Kerry in the coming elections and to topple LORD BUSH and his war. I urge each of you to stop this so called war for freedom. And to those of you trying to stop this war, STOP trying to use troop death counts as a way of doing it. We all know each of those soldiers knew the risk going there. I would not give a single penny, a single tear or thought towards our troops, they knew the risk and the conditions and if they dont like it then they shouldnt have signed up this WAS NOT a draft. I may write more later but I gotta get ready for class now.

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It Was Hard To Say Just What The Skies Were About To Do, Steely Grey Clouds Threatened To Break To Storm While Bright Sunshine FOught To Break Through

Quote Of The Day: "Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light."-Dylan Thomas (poem-Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night)

A quote from one of my favorite poets, Dylan Thomas, a man who seemed to understand and relate to death better than most. But the importance of this quote is in its inspiring message about raging against the inevitable. Though some things seem inevitable and no matter what you do those things will still happen, you should still stand up and throw everything you have against them. Just because something seems for sure doesnt mean that you shouldt stand up for what you believe and rage against it. If you have a goal that seems impossible and all odds are against it then go for it anyway, at least you will have the satisfaction of having tried, of having stood up for youself and reached towards the heavens to obtain that one bright star that has forever caught the twinkle in your glorious eyes. A bit poetic perhaps? Well I suppose thats to be expected once in awhile. Afterall I think we often ignore poetry and poetic ways of speaking a bit more than we should. This is especially true in your romantic relationships, too many people have lost sight of romantiscism and elegant ways of speaking.

Aside from that my life is in a very dark grey area right now. I was technically "layed off" from my job and as such im now jobless. My former employer owes me about 1250 in back wages and im really pissed he hasnt pais them yet cause Y a know I have bills just like everyone else. Its just kinda a bad time financially. But I have confidence that it'll work out in the next week or so.

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