Quote Of The Day: "...I hear how I am censured. They say I will bear myself proudly if I percieve the love come from her. They say too that she will rather die than give any sign of affection. I did never think to marry."-Benedick from Much Ado About Noting, William Shakespeare.
Well I went and saw the Alamo tonight, all in all it was pretty good. I wouldnt take it as an exact history so much as I would a glorified story but still it was a well made and well acted movie. Its one of those things you have to see in order to better understand your fellow man (or woman). Speaking of which I would like to say that though Is tand by my previously posted arguments I would like to say that the person they are aimed towards is quite dear to me and I apologize to that person for angering them. Sometimes we accidentally hurt those we most care about, and sometimes they antagonize you to do it. But when alls said and done you should just bury the hatched and make up.
SVS
A journey into the mind of madness and into the heart of the confused.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Monday, April 12, 2004
Though The Cloud Thundered And Brought Down Rain The Light And Heat Of The Sun Caused The Pitiful Little CLoud To WIther And Dissapate
Quote Of The Day: Dichotomy's are dangerous and should be avoided." -Rob Clingan
You know there is something inherently funny about a young white female attending a prestigious university standing on her soapbox screaming about Native American work in the past to procure their place in the future for their descendents. That my friends is a "dichotomy", something that is two polar opposites trying to fight for a middle ground and as are good friend Rob Clingan tell us, dichotomys are often dangerous. It is true that we should avoid these dangers, most often they falter and fail because of internal pressure of the basic arguments in themselves. Of course there is the plausible theory that dichotomys give the only actual truth but I cant believe that, perhaps you get a different perspective but hardly ever a truth. But I suppose this whole arugment is being aimed towards race, not a thing I care much to discuss usually. Well when it comes to someone of a seperate race defending the work of another because that is what they have been taught to believe is right, well thats simply ridiculous. The unfortunate truth is that when someone watches an African American basketball player do extremely well they take it as a credit to his or her race when they should take it as a testament to the human body and mind. Accomplishments from ancient cultures should never be looked at simply as a homage to that particular group but as a shining example of what humanity can do when motivated. This is true especially in multi-culturally diverse countries like the United States. Here we are a large blend of many different races and cultures, therefore our college scholars should focus more on the accomplishment of the human race as a whole and not try and break it down into seperate categories. Even though I know many of these people mean well by defending certain ethnic groups it only calls more attention to the differences rather than to the similarities. Skin color should be no concern to anyone at all, for any reason but it is beacuse of the academic world keeps trying to tell us that we should respect this culture for this achievment and that culture for that achievement instead of being revolutionary and calling these achievments the result of the human mind and body working hand in hand to change and makes itself better. I am a man comprised of many differing forces, I am Native American and I do feel a certain spiritual connection to that part of me, but I am also apart of ancient Swedish aristocracy dating far back into the middle ages and the reformation periods in Europe, there also Irish and German parts of me but instead of seeking these things individually I think of myself as the result of the culmination of many different humans and their similarities rather than their differences.
Next lets take a look at womens suffrage and equality in the modern world. It is true that women are still subject to sexist ideas by males in our society, women still are denied jobs in favor of a less qualified male applicant. THese are unfortunate truths and though it may sound harsh or unfeeling but what about that motivates me to stand up and fight back for them? The fact remains that I am a male in a very male friendly world. Is it fair? No. Is it right? No. But hows does it help for a man to stand up and fight back against other men for a female? This only demeans the role of the female participant, it gives the impression she is not as capable as me and needs me for defence, which simply isnt true. Equality only works if your willing to fight by yourself for it.
I must confess that these subjects and arguments are born of those unfinished ones with friends who care nto to finish them. But I do not name them because it is not my place to do so. Of course if they care to politely introduce themselves in the chat box next to the posts then that is totally acceptable so long as they are willing to remain civil. This is not a place for personal attacks. Now if someone does happen to post something rather nasty in that box then I will fight back with no quarter given, but that is merely in a defensive manner, never offensive. Chatting in a messenger forum is entirely different though I would think that if one makes an agreement to refrain from antagonizing another then perhaps it should be respected. If there is some sort of problem or issue then maybe it should be confronted from a logical and reasonable stand point rather than personal attacks that might cause one much anger, afterall ones usually hurts those they care for.
SVS.
You know there is something inherently funny about a young white female attending a prestigious university standing on her soapbox screaming about Native American work in the past to procure their place in the future for their descendents. That my friends is a "dichotomy", something that is two polar opposites trying to fight for a middle ground and as are good friend Rob Clingan tell us, dichotomys are often dangerous. It is true that we should avoid these dangers, most often they falter and fail because of internal pressure of the basic arguments in themselves. Of course there is the plausible theory that dichotomys give the only actual truth but I cant believe that, perhaps you get a different perspective but hardly ever a truth. But I suppose this whole arugment is being aimed towards race, not a thing I care much to discuss usually. Well when it comes to someone of a seperate race defending the work of another because that is what they have been taught to believe is right, well thats simply ridiculous. The unfortunate truth is that when someone watches an African American basketball player do extremely well they take it as a credit to his or her race when they should take it as a testament to the human body and mind. Accomplishments from ancient cultures should never be looked at simply as a homage to that particular group but as a shining example of what humanity can do when motivated. This is true especially in multi-culturally diverse countries like the United States. Here we are a large blend of many different races and cultures, therefore our college scholars should focus more on the accomplishment of the human race as a whole and not try and break it down into seperate categories. Even though I know many of these people mean well by defending certain ethnic groups it only calls more attention to the differences rather than to the similarities. Skin color should be no concern to anyone at all, for any reason but it is beacuse of the academic world keeps trying to tell us that we should respect this culture for this achievment and that culture for that achievement instead of being revolutionary and calling these achievments the result of the human mind and body working hand in hand to change and makes itself better. I am a man comprised of many differing forces, I am Native American and I do feel a certain spiritual connection to that part of me, but I am also apart of ancient Swedish aristocracy dating far back into the middle ages and the reformation periods in Europe, there also Irish and German parts of me but instead of seeking these things individually I think of myself as the result of the culmination of many different humans and their similarities rather than their differences.
Next lets take a look at womens suffrage and equality in the modern world. It is true that women are still subject to sexist ideas by males in our society, women still are denied jobs in favor of a less qualified male applicant. THese are unfortunate truths and though it may sound harsh or unfeeling but what about that motivates me to stand up and fight back for them? The fact remains that I am a male in a very male friendly world. Is it fair? No. Is it right? No. But hows does it help for a man to stand up and fight back against other men for a female? This only demeans the role of the female participant, it gives the impression she is not as capable as me and needs me for defence, which simply isnt true. Equality only works if your willing to fight by yourself for it.
I must confess that these subjects and arguments are born of those unfinished ones with friends who care nto to finish them. But I do not name them because it is not my place to do so. Of course if they care to politely introduce themselves in the chat box next to the posts then that is totally acceptable so long as they are willing to remain civil. This is not a place for personal attacks. Now if someone does happen to post something rather nasty in that box then I will fight back with no quarter given, but that is merely in a defensive manner, never offensive. Chatting in a messenger forum is entirely different though I would think that if one makes an agreement to refrain from antagonizing another then perhaps it should be respected. If there is some sort of problem or issue then maybe it should be confronted from a logical and reasonable stand point rather than personal attacks that might cause one much anger, afterall ones usually hurts those they care for.
SVS.
Friday, April 09, 2004
Upon The Horizon Ahead Stood A Dark Cloud Threatening The Sunshine, The Traveler Watched As The Cloud Approached
Quote Of The Day: "Anyone who tells you they're smarter because they're older doesnt know a damned thing" -Anonymous
I couldnt find a source author for todays quote but I thought it rather apt considering the misconceptions given to maturity and wisdom of someone who is older then another. Quite often I hear that a mere 2-4 year age gap in persons over the age of 18 matters "a whole hell of alot". This simply is not true and I might go so far as to suggest that it may be an attempt to glorify ones self when they are unable to think of anything better. In fact the only difference between a 2-4 age gap, as far as intelligence and personality goes, might be accelerated arrogance in the older person. For those of you not really interested in this arguement you'd better wait until I post something else cause this has a point. Anyway, age does not bring more wisdom or more maturity in an individual because ultimately it is different experience that brings those things. The curious thing about maturity is that only those who do not profess to have it and who often dont know they have it truly have gained it, whereas those who profess they are more mature or intelligent because they are a mere few years older are just grasping at wisps of smoke. One large pet peeve of mine is people who have the arrogance to call someone else "kid" or "kids" because they are merely 2-4 years older than them, this is nothing but audacious arrogance of someone who desperately needs to wake up from their little dream world where the classify people because of age. Especially those people who sue it in arguments, that is just an extremely weak way of defending ones own lack of creativity and maturity. Have a good weekend all.
SVS
I couldnt find a source author for todays quote but I thought it rather apt considering the misconceptions given to maturity and wisdom of someone who is older then another. Quite often I hear that a mere 2-4 year age gap in persons over the age of 18 matters "a whole hell of alot". This simply is not true and I might go so far as to suggest that it may be an attempt to glorify ones self when they are unable to think of anything better. In fact the only difference between a 2-4 age gap, as far as intelligence and personality goes, might be accelerated arrogance in the older person. For those of you not really interested in this arguement you'd better wait until I post something else cause this has a point. Anyway, age does not bring more wisdom or more maturity in an individual because ultimately it is different experience that brings those things. The curious thing about maturity is that only those who do not profess to have it and who often dont know they have it truly have gained it, whereas those who profess they are more mature or intelligent because they are a mere few years older are just grasping at wisps of smoke. One large pet peeve of mine is people who have the arrogance to call someone else "kid" or "kids" because they are merely 2-4 years older than them, this is nothing but audacious arrogance of someone who desperately needs to wake up from their little dream world where the classify people because of age. Especially those people who sue it in arguments, that is just an extremely weak way of defending ones own lack of creativity and maturity. Have a good weekend all.
SVS
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Out Into Bright Sunshine The Traveler Stepped, And Smiled At The Warmth Of It
Quote Of The Day: "You can try and obtain a truth from a person, and you can try and give them a lie. But you dont have to give anyone a truth and you dont have to take a lie." -Shawn V. Stengar (me)
Thats right, this is another one of my own quotes, in fact I just discovered this one tonight while discussing some things with someone. This same person acused me of being argumentative, now I had to supress my laughter because I thought that pretty much everyone knew this about me. Now the thing I think they truly learned is that if I truly believe im right then there are precious few people who can actually make me believe otherwise. But I think that this person is slowly learning more about me, more about the fact that I am not an overly open person. While it is true that I would willingly tell someone just about anything about myself this does not mean I will tell everyone. Trust is something that I do not lightly put in everyone at first, for me you must earn trust and sometimes that can take awhile. I have learned valuable lessons about trust and how much you should place in someone even though you may have known a person for years upon years or youve only known them since highschool, cause they may very well betray your trust in them.End of this discussion.
I went on a drive with my dad the other day, after we saw Hellboy, and I found it to be quite relaxing. We went out around the bay along East Bay Drive, and while some of my thoughts strayed outside of childhood there most of them were related to how things change and sometimes how much they stay the same. I am nearly 21 years old, that will make me nearly two decades old, not a long time but time enough to give one perspective on how the following years may go. It was suggested to me tonight that my problems stray from lack of female companionship. This is not the first time it has been suggested to me but allow me to make a point tonight. Just because one desires a thing does not mean that it is the source of ones troubles. Right now I am facing things more important than simple lack of female companionship. Such a suggestion might even be construed as an insult. I will, however, agree that "getting laid" may very well be a useful distraction but because of circumstances that is nto possible at this moment in time. Let us look at the facts of life and breakdown my supposed "problems". In the last several years I have: had my oldest friend betray me with my most trusted local friend who happens to be female, worked at a well known fast food chain and quit from that job which was predominantly female controlled, watched as more male members of my family died, enrolled in a college that is full of extreme liberals when I am rather conservative, been overwhelmed with homework, been faced with test after test in order to get out of my hometown, had to make a decision as where to go with my life, been enraptured with one female after another for it never to work out, given a second job that was a piece of crap in decent jobs guise, and purposely torpedoed a long standing friendship with an "angelic" friend because she and I are not possible and the relationship in any other way would not be good for either of us. So yes I do suppose that female companionship may have played a roll in some of those problems but I do not think that dating women I dont know would help much, sometimes friendly and familair faces would be much more helpful.
SVS
Thats right, this is another one of my own quotes, in fact I just discovered this one tonight while discussing some things with someone. This same person acused me of being argumentative, now I had to supress my laughter because I thought that pretty much everyone knew this about me. Now the thing I think they truly learned is that if I truly believe im right then there are precious few people who can actually make me believe otherwise. But I think that this person is slowly learning more about me, more about the fact that I am not an overly open person. While it is true that I would willingly tell someone just about anything about myself this does not mean I will tell everyone. Trust is something that I do not lightly put in everyone at first, for me you must earn trust and sometimes that can take awhile. I have learned valuable lessons about trust and how much you should place in someone even though you may have known a person for years upon years or youve only known them since highschool, cause they may very well betray your trust in them.End of this discussion.
I went on a drive with my dad the other day, after we saw Hellboy, and I found it to be quite relaxing. We went out around the bay along East Bay Drive, and while some of my thoughts strayed outside of childhood there most of them were related to how things change and sometimes how much they stay the same. I am nearly 21 years old, that will make me nearly two decades old, not a long time but time enough to give one perspective on how the following years may go. It was suggested to me tonight that my problems stray from lack of female companionship. This is not the first time it has been suggested to me but allow me to make a point tonight. Just because one desires a thing does not mean that it is the source of ones troubles. Right now I am facing things more important than simple lack of female companionship. Such a suggestion might even be construed as an insult. I will, however, agree that "getting laid" may very well be a useful distraction but because of circumstances that is nto possible at this moment in time. Let us look at the facts of life and breakdown my supposed "problems". In the last several years I have: had my oldest friend betray me with my most trusted local friend who happens to be female, worked at a well known fast food chain and quit from that job which was predominantly female controlled, watched as more male members of my family died, enrolled in a college that is full of extreme liberals when I am rather conservative, been overwhelmed with homework, been faced with test after test in order to get out of my hometown, had to make a decision as where to go with my life, been enraptured with one female after another for it never to work out, given a second job that was a piece of crap in decent jobs guise, and purposely torpedoed a long standing friendship with an "angelic" friend because she and I are not possible and the relationship in any other way would not be good for either of us. So yes I do suppose that female companionship may have played a roll in some of those problems but I do not think that dating women I dont know would help much, sometimes friendly and familair faces would be much more helpful.
SVS
Sunday, April 04, 2004
And So Through The Fog On The Moors He Traveled, All The While Wondering What Lay Just To Either Side In The All Concealing Fog
Quote Of The Day: "In the absence of light, darkness prevails..."-Hellboy (The Movie)
Well lets see if I can try and write on a more regular basis from now on shall we? Today I saw the above movie from which todays quote is more or less derived from, though im pretty sure Ive heard it from something else. In any case this is one of those no brainer quotes because obviously darkness would rule in a world absence of the grace of light but the deeper meaning here is that we should all be careful to preserve the light less we lose it and let darkness rule us. The movie was all in all a pretty cool one, lots of action and corny comedy but well worth it. I was delighted to see a newer and longer Harry Potter 3 preview and I even got some inspiration from the movie and some of the trailers on it. I expect to start on chapter 2 tonight, still looking for a title for the whole thing but I think ill end up waiting till its finished to title it, see what the overall meaning of the thing turns out to be. Well im off to go write and see what I can get done, I may post more later on tonight.
SVS
Well lets see if I can try and write on a more regular basis from now on shall we? Today I saw the above movie from which todays quote is more or less derived from, though im pretty sure Ive heard it from something else. In any case this is one of those no brainer quotes because obviously darkness would rule in a world absence of the grace of light but the deeper meaning here is that we should all be careful to preserve the light less we lose it and let darkness rule us. The movie was all in all a pretty cool one, lots of action and corny comedy but well worth it. I was delighted to see a newer and longer Harry Potter 3 preview and I even got some inspiration from the movie and some of the trailers on it. I expect to start on chapter 2 tonight, still looking for a title for the whole thing but I think ill end up waiting till its finished to title it, see what the overall meaning of the thing turns out to be. Well im off to go write and see what I can get done, I may post more later on tonight.
SVS
Friday, April 02, 2004
Emerging From The Dense Fog Of The Forest And Onto The Slightly Less Foggier Moors The Traveler Was Seen Walking His Path Almost Entirely Alone
Thats right im back again. To all my neglected friends and readers I humbly apologize for my absence and my forgetfulness. Lately I have been dealing with many things that desperately needed my attention not the least of which was college and all the trouble that brings. But I have also been trying to crack down on my writing and get a lot more done so I can post it for you in my other forum. To those of you who have read soem it and are semi-familiar with the character of Chantal, well let me just say this...dont get too attached. For cleansing purposes some of my constituents and advisors (friends) have advised me to be rid of that character towards the end of the story. I have not yet decided to do so but I must agree it would prove helpful. I have also been dealign with soem work issues that I cannot legally discuss but suffice it to say that theses issues needed resolving and as yet, have not entirely been resolved. Lips as you may or may not know is my partner for this story I am writing and I must give half credit to him for helping me write this, he doesnt exactly do the writing part but he is the essential engine behind my creative process. If it is not finished by the time the end of July gets here, which im sure it wont be, I plan to take my laptop to beautiful Las Vegas and maybe let the drunk creative juices flow onto the keyboard...........ok that came out a little less poetic than I had originally intended.
Ok, onto the personal life part of this thing. Well I cant say as though I've really had that much going on. Oh, I have been going on what the White Lady and I term "practice dates" here lately. Basically these pseudo dates are designed for us to gain experience with the opposite sex without it being a seriously situation. We went to see "Bad Santa" here awhile back and not too long ago we went out to dinner then we saw "Secret Window". Both times were pretty fun, though I thought the first time was kinda awkward but the second time was cool. We talked and discussed women and men and dating, very helpful to have the other sexes opinion on dating. Now dont get me wrong, Starfire and I talk about that kinda thing but when we do it there is just the slightest bit of flirting going on and we always make it something more intellectual whereas the White Lady and I make it more frank and conventional. I do value both talks though. White Lady is pretty cool though, I feel comfortable with her and I feel safe telling her things, not to mention that when it comes to talking about relationships I dont think I know anyone more honest.
Lips has been getting kinda excited about Vegas here lately, though there is a possibility I havent told him about yet because I dont know anything definate yet. I really dont wanna say anything more about it here just yet till I know something for sure. But I cant help but feel that same excitement, I love Reno and Vegas. There is just something very cool and awesome about knowing that there is always something fun going on there even in the early morning or the middle of the night. I think a friend from Montanna may come visit for a night or so either in Vegas or here in town before we go, and though there are no guarentees in life let me just say that the divine purity of Lord Shawn may not be long for the world. Actually that is more or less is what she is coming to uh.......inquire about. I find this to be a challenge from her and, of course, I gladly accept. Now to a normal male the loss would be gladly welcomed but to me I take this challenge to my will power serious, if she is not as strogn willed as she claims then she may well make it past my defences and the purity will be gone and ill just be normal. However if this girl is not as strong as she claims then nothing will happen life shall continue as it has for neearly 21 years. It may be presumptious of me but I believe that even drunk and relaxed there isnt a woman in creation that can match my intellect and willpower, but I do await the day someone does.
Private Jackass and I have totally stopped talking now in any way shape or form. And though I believe that it is for the better, because of things that went on last year that destroyed and corrupted a very old friendship, I do still hope he is farign well. I still do not agree with our presence there and I maintain that any man or woman willingly working for the United States armed forces is no better than a common street murderer. But as my friend I wish him the best in the things he believes in.
Fallen Angel, until further notice Angel is not now or will ever be a topic for discussion. There are many reasons for this, not the least of which is appropriate for this place. This does not mean that I do not talk to her or maintain contact with her but it does mean that this subject is still very touchy and for the sake of everyone I prefer not to bring it up and would prefer if it buried itself. To those of you I do talk about this with in private that kind of forum is totally appropriate just not this one.
Before I go I shall leave you with your Qote Of The Day: "...and then you took the words right out of my mouth. Oh it must have been while you were kissin me. You took the words right out of my mouth. Oh, and I swear its true, I was just about to say "I love You"." -Meatloaf [Song-->"You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night)", Bat Out Of Hell album]
I love this song, in fact I love almost everything of Meatloafs albums. But this one was particularly appealing. There is something both emotionally and physically stirring when you think of a person that takes the intiatve to kiss you in mid-sentence andt akes the words right out of your mouth. THis is particularly appealing to me when women do it to men because it shows their passion and fire, I've always foudn those scenes in movies where the woman does it to a man then she begins talking and the he reciproacates and does the same to her, soemthing very sexy about that.
On a sidenote I would just like to inform all of my readers that it is FRIGGING UNBEARABLY HOT TONIGHT!!! Goddamn its just horrid, im about three steps away from sleeping outside tonight. Anyway im off to go find a way to cool down from this horrid heat.
Shawn V. Stengar
Ok, onto the personal life part of this thing. Well I cant say as though I've really had that much going on. Oh, I have been going on what the White Lady and I term "practice dates" here lately. Basically these pseudo dates are designed for us to gain experience with the opposite sex without it being a seriously situation. We went to see "Bad Santa" here awhile back and not too long ago we went out to dinner then we saw "Secret Window". Both times were pretty fun, though I thought the first time was kinda awkward but the second time was cool. We talked and discussed women and men and dating, very helpful to have the other sexes opinion on dating. Now dont get me wrong, Starfire and I talk about that kinda thing but when we do it there is just the slightest bit of flirting going on and we always make it something more intellectual whereas the White Lady and I make it more frank and conventional. I do value both talks though. White Lady is pretty cool though, I feel comfortable with her and I feel safe telling her things, not to mention that when it comes to talking about relationships I dont think I know anyone more honest.
Lips has been getting kinda excited about Vegas here lately, though there is a possibility I havent told him about yet because I dont know anything definate yet. I really dont wanna say anything more about it here just yet till I know something for sure. But I cant help but feel that same excitement, I love Reno and Vegas. There is just something very cool and awesome about knowing that there is always something fun going on there even in the early morning or the middle of the night. I think a friend from Montanna may come visit for a night or so either in Vegas or here in town before we go, and though there are no guarentees in life let me just say that the divine purity of Lord Shawn may not be long for the world. Actually that is more or less is what she is coming to uh.......inquire about. I find this to be a challenge from her and, of course, I gladly accept. Now to a normal male the loss would be gladly welcomed but to me I take this challenge to my will power serious, if she is not as strogn willed as she claims then she may well make it past my defences and the purity will be gone and ill just be normal. However if this girl is not as strong as she claims then nothing will happen life shall continue as it has for neearly 21 years. It may be presumptious of me but I believe that even drunk and relaxed there isnt a woman in creation that can match my intellect and willpower, but I do await the day someone does.
Private Jackass and I have totally stopped talking now in any way shape or form. And though I believe that it is for the better, because of things that went on last year that destroyed and corrupted a very old friendship, I do still hope he is farign well. I still do not agree with our presence there and I maintain that any man or woman willingly working for the United States armed forces is no better than a common street murderer. But as my friend I wish him the best in the things he believes in.
Fallen Angel, until further notice Angel is not now or will ever be a topic for discussion. There are many reasons for this, not the least of which is appropriate for this place. This does not mean that I do not talk to her or maintain contact with her but it does mean that this subject is still very touchy and for the sake of everyone I prefer not to bring it up and would prefer if it buried itself. To those of you I do talk about this with in private that kind of forum is totally appropriate just not this one.
Before I go I shall leave you with your Qote Of The Day: "...and then you took the words right out of my mouth. Oh it must have been while you were kissin me. You took the words right out of my mouth. Oh, and I swear its true, I was just about to say "I love You"." -Meatloaf [Song-->"You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night)", Bat Out Of Hell album]
I love this song, in fact I love almost everything of Meatloafs albums. But this one was particularly appealing. There is something both emotionally and physically stirring when you think of a person that takes the intiatve to kiss you in mid-sentence andt akes the words right out of your mouth. THis is particularly appealing to me when women do it to men because it shows their passion and fire, I've always foudn those scenes in movies where the woman does it to a man then she begins talking and the he reciproacates and does the same to her, soemthing very sexy about that.
On a sidenote I would just like to inform all of my readers that it is FRIGGING UNBEARABLY HOT TONIGHT!!! Goddamn its just horrid, im about three steps away from sleeping outside tonight. Anyway im off to go find a way to cool down from this horrid heat.
Shawn V. Stengar
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