Quote Of The Day: "Too often we hide in the light, cowering away from the darkness. Never fear to embrace the dark and find the beauty in it. It is in the darkness that some of us find who we truly are." Anonymous
....................Sometimes its just hard to find anything to say when all you can think about is how much you'd like to change yourself simply for the sake of another. I had another blog all written out yesterday, nothing overly special but a long one about life and various ideals of love. For so long all I have thought about is love and all those wonderful ideas that surround it. I have found myself asking, why? The answer seems both simple and horribling confusing at the same time. It is because I enjoy shutting myself off from the world, to sit in quiet solitude away from the masses that wallow in their odd pleasures so foreign to me. To most of the world I am a cold and indifferent intellectual who cares for nothing more than his books and his thoughts. I find it sad that no one knows how incredibly wrong that is, well no one save for a few. Of course my friends but most importantly Angel knows better. When even close friends feel that my demeanor can be icy she knows how warm and passionate I am, how I enjoy being close and affectionate to her. Starlight also knows but im not sure the rest do. Whats funny is that I dont really care what anyone else thinks, just what Angel thinks. Now what brings about all these confessional thoughts? Well lately I've been drinking with friends a lot and alcohol is a depressant and often has this after-effect on me so it comes as no surprise. But do not mistake this affect for a substitution of the truth because though I am not in high spirits I am just as honest as ever with my words here. Though my words are sometimes cryptic and my meanings questionable I am always honest in this forum.
I have been housesitting since the 17th and it comes to an end tomorrow but I must say that I have enjoyed my time here while it lasted. I ahve enjoy great amounts of solitude as well as great amounts of time spent with friends drinking and talking. And a rather content and happy night spent with Angel. So nice to have such a wonderful weakness.
SVS
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
Quote Of The Day: "If Music Be THe Food Of Love, Play On" ~William Shakespeare
Since about the 17th I have been housesitting for some friends of the family and since I've been here alone, save for their dog, I have had a lot of time to think about things. The other day I was considering architechture, love, and women. Many times I've been told my poetry often holds women on pedastals or sets them too high. I find this quite amusing, because I dont put women on pedastals and certainly dont hold them beyond my own reach. Rather I think that women are put on pedastals so much as they are pedastals. The idea is that, for men, the women we adore and love often times become our pedastals, vessels that hold us higher than we normally are, make us feel like gods. Thats probably why we seek out these women, because with them we are more than what we are, we start to realize and feel our potential. But I dont think its entirely one sided either, I think women enjoy being vessels of divine inspiration, knowing that they have such a profound affect upon our psyche. In a way we make women feel every bit the goddess just as they inspire feelings of godhood in us. Now has this anything to do with me? With my arrogance and dillusions of godhood? Yes, I cannot deny it. A woman is the key to my arrogance, the source of my divinity. And right now I am rather imbued with my dillusions. Yes good friends Angel is the source of my power, so to speak. I feel exceptionally well now since I spent time with her the other day and I felt (feel) closer to her, to you Angel, than I have in a very long time. I enjoy my privacy and aloofness for the most part but in Angels case I enjoy the closeness and intamacy that we share. Id like to take a moment here and point out something. I spent last night with my oldest friend sharing beer and talking and repairing a badly damaged friendship. All is well with Pvt. Jackass now but he did tell me one thing that I disagreed with. He told me that Angel was not someone I should invest much of myself in, I believe he called her a stepping stone to better things. I know how harsh that sounds but the Pvt. was just stating what he felt was true, which is somewhat comendable if not condemable. Angel you KNOW that I dont feel that way, you are'nt part of my path to greatness, your part of the greatness that I strive for. Even though im sure being with the Garcon De Fille makes you somewhat happy, though from my observations it isnt so, I cant describe the elation i'd get from you being single again. But thats just me, hard to explain. My time here in this house is coming to a close but, Angel I need to see you more often.
SVS
Since about the 17th I have been housesitting for some friends of the family and since I've been here alone, save for their dog, I have had a lot of time to think about things. The other day I was considering architechture, love, and women. Many times I've been told my poetry often holds women on pedastals or sets them too high. I find this quite amusing, because I dont put women on pedastals and certainly dont hold them beyond my own reach. Rather I think that women are put on pedastals so much as they are pedastals. The idea is that, for men, the women we adore and love often times become our pedastals, vessels that hold us higher than we normally are, make us feel like gods. Thats probably why we seek out these women, because with them we are more than what we are, we start to realize and feel our potential. But I dont think its entirely one sided either, I think women enjoy being vessels of divine inspiration, knowing that they have such a profound affect upon our psyche. In a way we make women feel every bit the goddess just as they inspire feelings of godhood in us. Now has this anything to do with me? With my arrogance and dillusions of godhood? Yes, I cannot deny it. A woman is the key to my arrogance, the source of my divinity. And right now I am rather imbued with my dillusions. Yes good friends Angel is the source of my power, so to speak. I feel exceptionally well now since I spent time with her the other day and I felt (feel) closer to her, to you Angel, than I have in a very long time. I enjoy my privacy and aloofness for the most part but in Angels case I enjoy the closeness and intamacy that we share. Id like to take a moment here and point out something. I spent last night with my oldest friend sharing beer and talking and repairing a badly damaged friendship. All is well with Pvt. Jackass now but he did tell me one thing that I disagreed with. He told me that Angel was not someone I should invest much of myself in, I believe he called her a stepping stone to better things. I know how harsh that sounds but the Pvt. was just stating what he felt was true, which is somewhat comendable if not condemable. Angel you KNOW that I dont feel that way, you are'nt part of my path to greatness, your part of the greatness that I strive for. Even though im sure being with the Garcon De Fille makes you somewhat happy, though from my observations it isnt so, I cant describe the elation i'd get from you being single again. But thats just me, hard to explain. My time here in this house is coming to a close but, Angel I need to see you more often.
SVS
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Though No Rain Came From The Iron Grey Sky Above The Traveler Could Not Help Feel Droplets Of Sadness Building On The Horizon
Quote Of The Day~ "One should not seek to tame the love of his life. Instead he should run free with her, enjoy the sense of freedom together for it is in freedom that we truly find each other and know the meaning of love" Anonymous
It seems that Mr. (or Ms.) Anonymous seems to have some of the most lovely quotes I've ever seen. I cannot agree more with this quote, so many people my age and older today seem to have the notion that being in love is a thing that limits you and contains you when the very idea of love is anything but limiting. Relationships today are treated with so much carelessness that it utterly apalls me. When you find someone that you care for more than anything you can imagine you should hold her image in your head constantly, be able to hear her voice in your mind with crystal clairity, and know the feel of her skin against your hands at every moment. When you are together you should feel free to say whatever is on your mind, even if you feel it is nagging because it wont matter, because that is the kind of communication you can have together and be able to understand that. I know that I harp on this subject of romance and love a lot but there is rhyme and reason to everything I do. I do this because somewhere in this world there is a woman who I have a great deal of loving affection for, someone who I am afraid is quickly falling into a place where one ceases to feel anything, a great hole of darkness to put it in a rather dramatic fashion. Still though, I stand at the edge of that precipce hoping that whatever small light I carry will be enough to guide her up and out with my help. I know that many of my blogs are becoming more like overly dramatic lectures on human nature but as I have stated so many times, it is my blog and I choose what to put here but it is you who choose to return and read my words, though I do thank you for your interest in my words. For now I away to bed to await the break of a new dawns day so that life in all her glory may wash over me for one more rotation of the globe.
SVS
It seems that Mr. (or Ms.) Anonymous seems to have some of the most lovely quotes I've ever seen. I cannot agree more with this quote, so many people my age and older today seem to have the notion that being in love is a thing that limits you and contains you when the very idea of love is anything but limiting. Relationships today are treated with so much carelessness that it utterly apalls me. When you find someone that you care for more than anything you can imagine you should hold her image in your head constantly, be able to hear her voice in your mind with crystal clairity, and know the feel of her skin against your hands at every moment. When you are together you should feel free to say whatever is on your mind, even if you feel it is nagging because it wont matter, because that is the kind of communication you can have together and be able to understand that. I know that I harp on this subject of romance and love a lot but there is rhyme and reason to everything I do. I do this because somewhere in this world there is a woman who I have a great deal of loving affection for, someone who I am afraid is quickly falling into a place where one ceases to feel anything, a great hole of darkness to put it in a rather dramatic fashion. Still though, I stand at the edge of that precipce hoping that whatever small light I carry will be enough to guide her up and out with my help. I know that many of my blogs are becoming more like overly dramatic lectures on human nature but as I have stated so many times, it is my blog and I choose what to put here but it is you who choose to return and read my words, though I do thank you for your interest in my words. For now I away to bed to await the break of a new dawns day so that life in all her glory may wash over me for one more rotation of the globe.
SVS
Sunday, November 21, 2004
The Rains Cleared Away To Reveal A Sky Crip, Clear, And Cleaner Than Ever Before For All Good Things Come To He Who Waits
Quote Of The Day: "How do you talk to an angel? It's like trying to catch a falling star." ~Cant remember who it was.
This is yet one of many posts that I have actually hand written before posting it. Where I do this doesnt really matter, I just feel the need to write this evening/morning, a deep unquenchable thirst for writing. More often I feel I always need to have a pen and paper with me. I usually carry a pen and sticky notes with me anyway. Why? I guess there's probably several good reasons. First and foremost, I am a writer and every inch of me knows that and feels/hears the call of the pen. Second, when passion of any kind calls me I answer, though my responses vary. But mostly I love to think and writing helps that in me, it helps me to reflect on the world, on my world. Nothing is more sacred to me in the world as the written word, it is who we are, it enables cultures to exist far beyond the lives of its individuals, it carries our greatest accomplishments forward through the long passages of time, it gives us knowledge and power the likes of which could never exist without having been studied for centuries. Everything we were, are, and will be is becuase we have the ability to record things to solid unmistakable words, though there interpretation ocassionally gets thrown astrew. The printing press was and still is mankinds greatest achievment to date, it allowed knowledge to be mass produced and given to everyone, the knowledge of how tor ead goes hand in hand with that and anyone who cannot read needs to be taught for in the ability to read and write lies the greatest potential of every man.
Let us focus upon my being a passioante person, because there has been many a time when I have been accused of being cold and inpassionate. I may not flaunt and throw around me emotions in public for all to see but I can assure you that I do have great and exorberrant amounts of passion. What di I have passion for? Writing for one, women for another. Wanna know just how passionate Lord Shawn is? Just ask Lips or Angel, even Starfire can attest to my passions. Or read the above in blue and see just how passionate I can get, or come ask me about my beliefs in love, life, god, or writing. Read my archive, found in my profile, and see just how passionate I can truly be. Anyone who accuses me of being cold and inpassionate does not truly know me or is not worth my time to be passionate for. Soon I will post somemore story (yes Angel I will have more fo Chantal soon, and I think you shall be delighted in what I have doen with her), there will be some more poems, and a rather special piece inspired by Private Jackass and Starfire. I also hope to be doing some special pieces, rather a series of pieces in the coming months.
Angel ;) my dearest, I am sorry we couldnt have our time together as planned but I promise time again soon, when I housesit. We shall have our special movies, drinks, and my dear I promise to massage you until YOU say we are done, such is my oath to you dear.
There will be one change in names on here now. The good and honorable woman formerly known as "The White Lady" shall henceforth be known as "Starlight". Yeah yeah I know, another celestial name for yet another woman but its my blog, not happ with it go somehwere else. Starlight and I share some commonalities in the way we deal with romance. I often like to think of her as a more humble female me, and oh what potential she has in her. She is working towards becoming a psychologist, a field in which I'm sure she can flourish and thrive in. If we were'nt so alike we might have made a rather powerful and wonderful pair, alas the world balances such power by making us too different. In man ways I think that is the reason for failure in many of my past relationships, the union of myself with such powerful women would mean too great an inbalance in the world. What it is the world wants with/for me is hard to say. Perhaps the world seeks to pair me with a woman who is more powerful than myself or perhaps one which may not be more powerful but distracts me or can tame my restless mind. I have envisioned myself being committed to many women, but I can never see it working. With Starlight it would mean a constant game of working against one another too much to be healthy or last. With Sunshine it would be a matter of my taking things too seriously, being too stuffy or taking things to casually and never communicating enough. Starfire would forever boil my blood and heaven, earth, and hell below would quake from the combination of tempers flaring that would be inevitable. Not many people can raise my ire that quickly, and I think I tend to do the same to her. And Angel, it would mean my finality, my pacification, a taming of my arrogance, an enhancement and improvment in confidence, and a dangerous and cloudy control of desire and passion, a balance of mutual control. Each scenario provides more and more interesting thoughts, sex would never be a problem with anyone, but personality combination would. Does it mean I'm going to pursue any? Well I've often had fantasies of Shania Twian too but that doesnt mean I take it seriously or that I have intentions of pursuing it, but it also means I wouldnt say no either. I prefer to look at it as I am grateful for what I have and treasue it but would never let myself be stilled simply by being afraid to make somethign more out of what I have, even at the risking of losing it because it would all be risks that would be well worth taking.
On that note I shall leave you all to the remainder of your evening because I have very sore muscles now, which id reveal why but......well some things jsut shouldnt be blogged about, especially since it would make me reveal a lie for the first time in my great blogging history. I am off to the shower to soak and wish I had a massuse for aching muscles from too much use. Good eve all.
This is yet one of many posts that I have actually hand written before posting it. Where I do this doesnt really matter, I just feel the need to write this evening/morning, a deep unquenchable thirst for writing. More often I feel I always need to have a pen and paper with me. I usually carry a pen and sticky notes with me anyway. Why? I guess there's probably several good reasons. First and foremost, I am a writer and every inch of me knows that and feels/hears the call of the pen. Second, when passion of any kind calls me I answer, though my responses vary. But mostly I love to think and writing helps that in me, it helps me to reflect on the world, on my world. Nothing is more sacred to me in the world as the written word, it is who we are, it enables cultures to exist far beyond the lives of its individuals, it carries our greatest accomplishments forward through the long passages of time, it gives us knowledge and power the likes of which could never exist without having been studied for centuries. Everything we were, are, and will be is becuase we have the ability to record things to solid unmistakable words, though there interpretation ocassionally gets thrown astrew. The printing press was and still is mankinds greatest achievment to date, it allowed knowledge to be mass produced and given to everyone, the knowledge of how tor ead goes hand in hand with that and anyone who cannot read needs to be taught for in the ability to read and write lies the greatest potential of every man.
Let us focus upon my being a passioante person, because there has been many a time when I have been accused of being cold and inpassionate. I may not flaunt and throw around me emotions in public for all to see but I can assure you that I do have great and exorberrant amounts of passion. What di I have passion for? Writing for one, women for another. Wanna know just how passionate Lord Shawn is? Just ask Lips or Angel, even Starfire can attest to my passions. Or read the above in blue and see just how passionate I can get, or come ask me about my beliefs in love, life, god, or writing. Read my archive, found in my profile, and see just how passionate I can truly be. Anyone who accuses me of being cold and inpassionate does not truly know me or is not worth my time to be passionate for. Soon I will post somemore story (yes Angel I will have more fo Chantal soon, and I think you shall be delighted in what I have doen with her), there will be some more poems, and a rather special piece inspired by Private Jackass and Starfire. I also hope to be doing some special pieces, rather a series of pieces in the coming months.
Angel ;) my dearest, I am sorry we couldnt have our time together as planned but I promise time again soon, when I housesit. We shall have our special movies, drinks, and my dear I promise to massage you until YOU say we are done, such is my oath to you dear.
There will be one change in names on here now. The good and honorable woman formerly known as "The White Lady" shall henceforth be known as "Starlight". Yeah yeah I know, another celestial name for yet another woman but its my blog, not happ with it go somehwere else. Starlight and I share some commonalities in the way we deal with romance. I often like to think of her as a more humble female me, and oh what potential she has in her. She is working towards becoming a psychologist, a field in which I'm sure she can flourish and thrive in. If we were'nt so alike we might have made a rather powerful and wonderful pair, alas the world balances such power by making us too different. In man ways I think that is the reason for failure in many of my past relationships, the union of myself with such powerful women would mean too great an inbalance in the world. What it is the world wants with/for me is hard to say. Perhaps the world seeks to pair me with a woman who is more powerful than myself or perhaps one which may not be more powerful but distracts me or can tame my restless mind. I have envisioned myself being committed to many women, but I can never see it working. With Starlight it would mean a constant game of working against one another too much to be healthy or last. With Sunshine it would be a matter of my taking things too seriously, being too stuffy or taking things to casually and never communicating enough. Starfire would forever boil my blood and heaven, earth, and hell below would quake from the combination of tempers flaring that would be inevitable. Not many people can raise my ire that quickly, and I think I tend to do the same to her. And Angel, it would mean my finality, my pacification, a taming of my arrogance, an enhancement and improvment in confidence, and a dangerous and cloudy control of desire and passion, a balance of mutual control. Each scenario provides more and more interesting thoughts, sex would never be a problem with anyone, but personality combination would. Does it mean I'm going to pursue any? Well I've often had fantasies of Shania Twian too but that doesnt mean I take it seriously or that I have intentions of pursuing it, but it also means I wouldnt say no either. I prefer to look at it as I am grateful for what I have and treasue it but would never let myself be stilled simply by being afraid to make somethign more out of what I have, even at the risking of losing it because it would all be risks that would be well worth taking.
On that note I shall leave you all to the remainder of your evening because I have very sore muscles now, which id reveal why but......well some things jsut shouldnt be blogged about, especially since it would make me reveal a lie for the first time in my great blogging history. I am off to the shower to soak and wish I had a massuse for aching muscles from too much use. Good eve all.
Thursday, November 18, 2004
The Rains Proved No Threat And The Sadness Simply Washed Over Him As He Continued On, The Traveler Always Determined To Stay The Course
Quote Of The Day: "Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." ~Twelfth Night, Act II, Sc V
Well today I have spent the better part of my day cleaning the house and my bedroom, attempting to make both look clean and decent before Angel comes over this evening. I hate for anyone to see such dissaray as what has become of my living space. I really should have started this last night but I was kinda tired and really just didnt have the energy to. I also should have gone down to the sotre and got the stuff for Mudslides, but I guess you'll just have to settle for beer or something Angel. Ahh well, no harm I suppose. But ill make you drinks next month when I'm housesitting and you come to aid me. And wouldnt ya know it, time to go to work. God how I hate going to my job, not the job itself really, just going to it.
SVS
Well today I have spent the better part of my day cleaning the house and my bedroom, attempting to make both look clean and decent before Angel comes over this evening. I hate for anyone to see such dissaray as what has become of my living space. I really should have started this last night but I was kinda tired and really just didnt have the energy to. I also should have gone down to the sotre and got the stuff for Mudslides, but I guess you'll just have to settle for beer or something Angel. Ahh well, no harm I suppose. But ill make you drinks next month when I'm housesitting and you come to aid me. And wouldnt ya know it, time to go to work. God how I hate going to my job, not the job itself really, just going to it.
SVS
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Through The Pouring Rains The Traveler Walked, Enduring The Sadness Of The Falling Rains
Quote Of The Day: "Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be."
~Anton Chekhov
One of the worlds greatest playwrights, a man of great genius and greater moral convictions. Anton Chekhov is one of my favorite authors, many said that he wrote for the people where he lived in Russia, but when you read his works you know that he was a man who wrote for himself because it was in his blood. This quote represents that, he obviously felt and believed in it deeply, as I think I do as well. Although I would add that beign in love also corrupts the rational part of the mind and tends to make the mouth produce words before the mind is able to strain and check them. Many of us have seen the effect of passioante words to those we care for, often times we do more damage to them then we would a simpel stranger because we have the knowledge of what hurts them and it makes them easier targets. I guess its about udnerstanding, understanding why we are the way we are and trying to accept others the way they are as well. One thing that people never stop to consider is themselves, sure we consider others and try to rationalize the way they are but we never stop to think why we do the things we do to those others. There is so much more I want to say on this subject right now because I'm a little angry from something else today, but I feel a little guilty for being angry. You know of all the arguments I ahve with people I am not afraid to admit im wrong and do so when I am but I find that not many others have that same conviction in them, they simply think they are right 100% of the time.
On a happier note I am to spend some quality time with Angel soon, a woman who gets entirely to much critiscism from other people. Though I am happy to say that, for now, those voices are silent. It appears that no one is bold enough to voice their opinion when they have no one to stand behind them and support them, cowards every one of them. Although there are voices quietly whispering my name now, still cowardly enough to simply whisper it. Worry not Angel dearest, ill be mroe than happy to teach you our song again. Maybe we will have the chance for two nights together and not just one.
While I thought that PVT Jackasses return would be a good thing I quickly see that I was jumping to conclusions. He and I are two entirely different people with nothing in common anymore, he finally admits this now and realizes just how true it really is. For my part I believe him to be a drunkard, a human beign with no direction, an immoral individual with no respect for himself, and a man who I could no more trust than I could pick him up and toss him. All good things do come to an eventual end.
SVS
~Anton Chekhov
One of the worlds greatest playwrights, a man of great genius and greater moral convictions. Anton Chekhov is one of my favorite authors, many said that he wrote for the people where he lived in Russia, but when you read his works you know that he was a man who wrote for himself because it was in his blood. This quote represents that, he obviously felt and believed in it deeply, as I think I do as well. Although I would add that beign in love also corrupts the rational part of the mind and tends to make the mouth produce words before the mind is able to strain and check them. Many of us have seen the effect of passioante words to those we care for, often times we do more damage to them then we would a simpel stranger because we have the knowledge of what hurts them and it makes them easier targets. I guess its about udnerstanding, understanding why we are the way we are and trying to accept others the way they are as well. One thing that people never stop to consider is themselves, sure we consider others and try to rationalize the way they are but we never stop to think why we do the things we do to those others. There is so much more I want to say on this subject right now because I'm a little angry from something else today, but I feel a little guilty for being angry. You know of all the arguments I ahve with people I am not afraid to admit im wrong and do so when I am but I find that not many others have that same conviction in them, they simply think they are right 100% of the time.
On a happier note I am to spend some quality time with Angel soon, a woman who gets entirely to much critiscism from other people. Though I am happy to say that, for now, those voices are silent. It appears that no one is bold enough to voice their opinion when they have no one to stand behind them and support them, cowards every one of them. Although there are voices quietly whispering my name now, still cowardly enough to simply whisper it. Worry not Angel dearest, ill be mroe than happy to teach you our song again. Maybe we will have the chance for two nights together and not just one.
While I thought that PVT Jackasses return would be a good thing I quickly see that I was jumping to conclusions. He and I are two entirely different people with nothing in common anymore, he finally admits this now and realizes just how true it really is. For my part I believe him to be a drunkard, a human beign with no direction, an immoral individual with no respect for himself, and a man who I could no more trust than I could pick him up and toss him. All good things do come to an eventual end.
SVS
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Hacking And Slashing At His Foes The Traveler Fought His Way Along The Path
Quote Of The Day: "So long as the laws remain such as they are today, employ some discretion: loud opinion forces us to do do; but in privacy and silence let us compensate ourselves for that cruel chastity we are obliged to display in public." ~Le Marquis De Sade
I find that lately the Marquis's words are quite appealing to me. He is full of such sarcasm, such wit, and such siniscism. I have also recently decided something, something that I believe will aid me in the future somehow (though I know not yet how). I have decided to become Catholic, and I mean I want to be baptized and everything, to go to mass every sunday, and confession every saturday........................................... Yeah. SO im thinking i'd probably best explain this one. Ok, somehow I believe that having an actual religion that you can say you belong to will come in handy in the future, for a lot of different reasons. Do I believe? No, dont be stupid, im still a true Atheist (actually humanist but I dont want to go into the differences). So yeah, workin on becoming Catholic. Plus im hopin for a discount at Vatican giftshops or something.
Well I talked with Starfire for a very long time today and I couldnt have been happier with our conversation. It was entertaining and civil, insightful but not over intellectual. Truly we should have more of those. Its refreshing to have good conversation lately when so many of you have been such idiots lately. Ok well not many of you but a few. Honestly Chiuaua Man is getting more and more offensive and stupid. Does being removed from your place of education really make one that bad after only two weeks? I havent seen Dalamar lately so I cant really comment on him. And as you might have guessed Angel (guess because of her message in the chat box) must either be going through a time of monthly anger or I have actually done something wrong. Hmmm, well im of the mind right now not to care too terrible much. Mostly because im kinda tired, kinda irratated, and somewhat relaxed enough to say f*&k it.
SVS
I find that lately the Marquis's words are quite appealing to me. He is full of such sarcasm, such wit, and such siniscism. I have also recently decided something, something that I believe will aid me in the future somehow (though I know not yet how). I have decided to become Catholic, and I mean I want to be baptized and everything, to go to mass every sunday, and confession every saturday........................................... Yeah. SO im thinking i'd probably best explain this one. Ok, somehow I believe that having an actual religion that you can say you belong to will come in handy in the future, for a lot of different reasons. Do I believe? No, dont be stupid, im still a true Atheist (actually humanist but I dont want to go into the differences). So yeah, workin on becoming Catholic. Plus im hopin for a discount at Vatican giftshops or something.
Well I talked with Starfire for a very long time today and I couldnt have been happier with our conversation. It was entertaining and civil, insightful but not over intellectual. Truly we should have more of those. Its refreshing to have good conversation lately when so many of you have been such idiots lately. Ok well not many of you but a few. Honestly Chiuaua Man is getting more and more offensive and stupid. Does being removed from your place of education really make one that bad after only two weeks? I havent seen Dalamar lately so I cant really comment on him. And as you might have guessed Angel (guess because of her message in the chat box) must either be going through a time of monthly anger or I have actually done something wrong. Hmmm, well im of the mind right now not to care too terrible much. Mostly because im kinda tired, kinda irratated, and somewhat relaxed enough to say f*&k it.
SVS
Hacking And Slashing At His Foes The Traveler Fought His Way Along The Path
Quote Of The Day: "So long as the laws remain such as they are today, employ some discretion: loud opinion forces us to do do; but in privacy and silence let us compensate ourselves for that cruel chastity we are obliged to display in public." ~Le Marquis De Sade
I find that lately the Marquis's words are quite appealing to me. He is full of such sarcasm, such wit, and such siniscism. I have also recently decided something, something that I believe will aid me in the future somehow (though I know not yet how). I have decided to become Catholic, and I mean I want to be baptized and everything, to go to mass every sunday, and confession every saturday........................................... Yeah. SO im thinking i'd probably best explain this one. Ok, somehow I believe that having an actual religion that you can say you belong to will come in handy in the future, for a lot of different reasons. Do I believe? No, dont be stupid, im still a true Atheist (actually humanist but I dont want to go into the differences). So yeah, workin on becoming Catholic. Plus im hopin for a discount at Vatican giftshops or something.
Well I talked with Starfire for a very long time today and I couldnt have been happier with our conversation. It was entertaining and civil, insightful but not over intellectual. Truly we should have more of those. Its refreshing to have good conversation lately when so many of you have been such idiots lately. Ok well not many of you but a few. Honestly Chiuaua Man is getting more and more offensive and stupid. Does being removed from your place of education really make one that bad after only two weeks? I havent seen Dalamar lately so I cant really comment on him. And as you might have guessed Angel (guess because of her message in the chat box) must either be going through a time of monthly anger or I have actually done something wrong. Hmmm, well im of the mind right now not to care too terrible much. Mostly because im kinda tired, kinda irratated, and somewhat relaxed enough to say f*&k it.
SVS
I find that lately the Marquis's words are quite appealing to me. He is full of such sarcasm, such wit, and such siniscism. I have also recently decided something, something that I believe will aid me in the future somehow (though I know not yet how). I have decided to become Catholic, and I mean I want to be baptized and everything, to go to mass every sunday, and confession every saturday........................................... Yeah. SO im thinking i'd probably best explain this one. Ok, somehow I believe that having an actual religion that you can say you belong to will come in handy in the future, for a lot of different reasons. Do I believe? No, dont be stupid, im still a true Atheist (actually humanist but I dont want to go into the differences). So yeah, workin on becoming Catholic. Plus im hopin for a discount at Vatican giftshops or something.
Well I talked with Starfire for a very long time today and I couldnt have been happier with our conversation. It was entertaining and civil, insightful but not over intellectual. Truly we should have more of those. Its refreshing to have good conversation lately when so many of you have been such idiots lately. Ok well not many of you but a few. Honestly Chiuaua Man is getting more and more offensive and stupid. Does being removed from your place of education really make one that bad after only two weeks? I havent seen Dalamar lately so I cant really comment on him. And as you might have guessed Angel (guess because of her message in the chat box) must either be going through a time of monthly anger or I have actually done something wrong. Hmmm, well im of the mind right now not to care too terrible much. Mostly because im kinda tired, kinda irratated, and somewhat relaxed enough to say f*&k it.
SVS
Thursday, November 04, 2004
The Rain Began To Fall As The Traveler Continued To Travel, Putting Up The Hood Of His Robe He Resembled Something Of A Monk, But A False Monk
Quote Of The Day: "Nature, who for the perfect maintenance of the laws of her general equilibrium, has sometimes need of vices and sometimes of virtues, inspires now this impulse, now that one, in accordance with what she requires." ~Marquis De Sade
Well its yet another another brilliant quote from one of the single most intelligent men and talented writers the world has ever known. The Marquis was truly one of the most inspiring men of history, a man of shining brilliance, brilliant wit, and witty intelligence. This was a man that even i would have had to bow before in sheer respect for his superior intelligence. Whilst we are on the subject let us speak of intelligence more. It has been suggested to me that most people would expect that the women I date are intelligent or superiorly intelligent, I cannot help but laugh at this a bit because it has been far from the truth. Many of the past women I have dated have been rather average in intelligence, nothing above average and certainly none that I would ever call superiorly intelligent. It is only my friends that are intelligent, perhaps this is the reason for my lack of itnerest ind ating? The fact that I date the average, women who barely know they live much less have enough intelligence to delve into the complexities of life and knowing what it means to be truly alive. But I must say all my friends have unique intelligences. Lips has a more down to earth intelligence that ranges in the common world and the world of reality. Angel has an intellect that deals more with the emotional side of life, she is able to see past other persons emotions even when she cant see past her own. Starfire has a dizzying intellect that is ruthless in its pursuit of what is truly right and truly wrong with very little grey areas, things that have to do with the intellectual and liberal worlds. Chiuaua Man is another that I would consider to be something of an inspiring intellectual, whereas Starfire is a true intellectual, he is still aspiring but is quite adept in the political, conservative, and collegic worlds. Horse Boy is something of a savant intellectual, never truly understanding any one single subject but always have a decent grasp on anything he tries to learn. Dalamar is something of a learned scholar of people, he knows precisely how to get along with nearly everyone and is quite good at riding the center line. My Happy is a pseudo intellectual, at first seeming very bright and quick but when one looks closer they see that it is merely a face, though his skills in the dramatis parts of the world are undeniable. Prvt Jackass probably has the most skilled of intelligence, a hidden and quiet type of intelligence, he never seems to understand but it is always an act to hide the fact that he knows and learns quickly but hides it to disarm people. Sunshine is something of a puzzle to me, she seems quite intelligent and bright but its hard to say since I've never really gotten to know her.
Speaking of Sunshine, I saw her the other day on my way to work, she was riding her bicycle. She looked quite fetching in her biking outfit and tired sweaty looing expression. We spoke for a few minutes, and one thing led to another and she decided we need to go out this weekend and do soemthing so I am hoping for the beach at sunset and maybe a shoulder massage (sorry Angel, ya missed your chance but maybe sunday after church). I rahter like Sunshine, her presence always makes me smile and we always end up talking about something positive and upbeat, each time it ends on a high note.
Someone recently mentioned to me that there are a certain grouping of women in my life that have to do with some kind of celestial nature. Either something about Angelic beings, the stars, the sun, or something of those natures. I cant really comment on this, though im quite aware of the meaning but I thought it was a rather intelligent comment. Whereas other women dont ahve anything to do with the sky or the celestial parts of the world. Perhaps ill comment on it later, but for now I leave you all to wonder.
Once again i cant encourage you all enough to read my archives and send me an e-mail, a snail mail, a text message, or even a phone call letting me know what you think. We all know that you can reach me by e-mail at Quixote_Thoughts@yahoo.com. Snail Mail at P.O. Box 649, North Bend, Oregon 97459. text message or phone call (or voicemail) to (541)290-4752. Of course my archive is found under my profile to the right of the page or right here http://minitia.blogspot.com/. So there we have it. A'bientot.
SVS
Well its yet another another brilliant quote from one of the single most intelligent men and talented writers the world has ever known. The Marquis was truly one of the most inspiring men of history, a man of shining brilliance, brilliant wit, and witty intelligence. This was a man that even i would have had to bow before in sheer respect for his superior intelligence. Whilst we are on the subject let us speak of intelligence more. It has been suggested to me that most people would expect that the women I date are intelligent or superiorly intelligent, I cannot help but laugh at this a bit because it has been far from the truth. Many of the past women I have dated have been rather average in intelligence, nothing above average and certainly none that I would ever call superiorly intelligent. It is only my friends that are intelligent, perhaps this is the reason for my lack of itnerest ind ating? The fact that I date the average, women who barely know they live much less have enough intelligence to delve into the complexities of life and knowing what it means to be truly alive. But I must say all my friends have unique intelligences. Lips has a more down to earth intelligence that ranges in the common world and the world of reality. Angel has an intellect that deals more with the emotional side of life, she is able to see past other persons emotions even when she cant see past her own. Starfire has a dizzying intellect that is ruthless in its pursuit of what is truly right and truly wrong with very little grey areas, things that have to do with the intellectual and liberal worlds. Chiuaua Man is another that I would consider to be something of an inspiring intellectual, whereas Starfire is a true intellectual, he is still aspiring but is quite adept in the political, conservative, and collegic worlds. Horse Boy is something of a savant intellectual, never truly understanding any one single subject but always have a decent grasp on anything he tries to learn. Dalamar is something of a learned scholar of people, he knows precisely how to get along with nearly everyone and is quite good at riding the center line. My Happy is a pseudo intellectual, at first seeming very bright and quick but when one looks closer they see that it is merely a face, though his skills in the dramatis parts of the world are undeniable. Prvt Jackass probably has the most skilled of intelligence, a hidden and quiet type of intelligence, he never seems to understand but it is always an act to hide the fact that he knows and learns quickly but hides it to disarm people. Sunshine is something of a puzzle to me, she seems quite intelligent and bright but its hard to say since I've never really gotten to know her.
Speaking of Sunshine, I saw her the other day on my way to work, she was riding her bicycle. She looked quite fetching in her biking outfit and tired sweaty looing expression. We spoke for a few minutes, and one thing led to another and she decided we need to go out this weekend and do soemthing so I am hoping for the beach at sunset and maybe a shoulder massage (sorry Angel, ya missed your chance but maybe sunday after church). I rahter like Sunshine, her presence always makes me smile and we always end up talking about something positive and upbeat, each time it ends on a high note.
Someone recently mentioned to me that there are a certain grouping of women in my life that have to do with some kind of celestial nature. Either something about Angelic beings, the stars, the sun, or something of those natures. I cant really comment on this, though im quite aware of the meaning but I thought it was a rather intelligent comment. Whereas other women dont ahve anything to do with the sky or the celestial parts of the world. Perhaps ill comment on it later, but for now I leave you all to wonder.
Once again i cant encourage you all enough to read my archives and send me an e-mail, a snail mail, a text message, or even a phone call letting me know what you think. We all know that you can reach me by e-mail at Quixote_Thoughts@yahoo.com. Snail Mail at P.O. Box 649, North Bend, Oregon 97459. text message or phone call (or voicemail) to (541)290-4752. Of course my archive is found under my profile to the right of the page or right here http://minitia.blogspot.com/. So there we have it. A'bientot.
SVS
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Dark Times Ahead Could Be Felt By The Wandering Traveler As He Passed Through A Land With No Intelligence
Quote Of The Day: "Tis time to fear when Tyrants seem to kiss" -William Shakespeare (Pericles, Act I, Scene 2)
What the holy hell was that botox injected freak thinking? Honestly, he just lost a presidential election to a retarded Texan, yeah like theres any other kind right? This guy is the Hitler of North America and that ketchup loving moron cant win against the single most retarded dictator in history? This is just sad no matter how you look at it. Alas, but not all is lost dear friends. This simply means four more years of moron jokes, retard slams, idiot puns and yet more superbowls with pretzels. Still though, it was kinda sad all in all. Oh and four more years of heartattack jokes.
Ahh, well at least we're back to regular posting again, regular ramblings and great amounts of verbal self-gratification. All Hallows Eve was a less than sucessful evening and a less than totally happy time for so many different reasons. I really didnt feel any better until the next day. But it was that next day that really made all the difference, the words of those we sometimes overlook the intelligence of can lift our spirits. Pvt. Jackass and I talked for a bit, his happiness is positively infectious. But more importantly is that he is returing to civilization very soon and he and I have found a truce, an understanding, a cease fire if you will. The good Pvt gave particularly skilled advice with an issue of some import. His genuinely jovial nature lightened even this heavy heart. Its a pitty that he must return to the shores of his homeland to find the tyrant, who was the reason why he was sent away in the first place, still very much in power and kept there by the lack of intelligence of the people he rules. Sorry folks, if ya voted republican this time around, you are the very embodiment of idiocy.
On the brighter side of life, Angel and I have re-newed a close-knit friendship that has quickly surpassed even what it had reached before. There are few people this Lord feels close to but Angel is one of those very few. We were dicussing some things the other night, and I realized just how much control we have over one another. Angel has the lovely power to command my actions but on the reverse my actions have the ability to control her, the point being that people who know one another well enough often have great control over the other and help to cover the weak spots of the other. I believe we are off to the beach this weekend to listen to the worlds life breath in the waves then to Church on sunday morning.
Also it has recently been requested of me that I remove an earlier post regarding Dalamars girlfriend and even issue an apology. A well thought out and even logical, to some degree, request. Truly a humble request and no doubt a heartfelt one as well. So how can I possibly say "no" to our good Dalamar? Damned easy actually, Not only do I officially say "no" I say "hell no" not a chance, but before you all boo and hiss let me tell you why. Anyone who can continually comment on another person as much as she does should be prepared to take the same thing from anyone else. Do not give out any more than you can take. I have time and again commented on others here but I am always ready with a defense should they come round to argue, with the exception of stupid unlogical, un-thought out arguments made by the "garcon de fille" (honestly, how stupid can a single person be?). So no, no apology and no retraction is my decision. He already knows of course but I just wanted to share with the rest of you.
Oh yes, and here is the page for my Archive, which I believe you can also find in my profile. I have posted some new things there and I will be posting some new poems and such up. It works a little different in that not every new post comes up as a seperate post, im just adding them to the original posts. I.E. poems will be found in the poem post, various stories in their own, and should I start posting some of my essays than they too will have their own. http://minitia.blogspot.com/
SVS
What the holy hell was that botox injected freak thinking? Honestly, he just lost a presidential election to a retarded Texan, yeah like theres any other kind right? This guy is the Hitler of North America and that ketchup loving moron cant win against the single most retarded dictator in history? This is just sad no matter how you look at it. Alas, but not all is lost dear friends. This simply means four more years of moron jokes, retard slams, idiot puns and yet more superbowls with pretzels. Still though, it was kinda sad all in all. Oh and four more years of heartattack jokes.
Ahh, well at least we're back to regular posting again, regular ramblings and great amounts of verbal self-gratification. All Hallows Eve was a less than sucessful evening and a less than totally happy time for so many different reasons. I really didnt feel any better until the next day. But it was that next day that really made all the difference, the words of those we sometimes overlook the intelligence of can lift our spirits. Pvt. Jackass and I talked for a bit, his happiness is positively infectious. But more importantly is that he is returing to civilization very soon and he and I have found a truce, an understanding, a cease fire if you will. The good Pvt gave particularly skilled advice with an issue of some import. His genuinely jovial nature lightened even this heavy heart. Its a pitty that he must return to the shores of his homeland to find the tyrant, who was the reason why he was sent away in the first place, still very much in power and kept there by the lack of intelligence of the people he rules. Sorry folks, if ya voted republican this time around, you are the very embodiment of idiocy.
On the brighter side of life, Angel and I have re-newed a close-knit friendship that has quickly surpassed even what it had reached before. There are few people this Lord feels close to but Angel is one of those very few. We were dicussing some things the other night, and I realized just how much control we have over one another. Angel has the lovely power to command my actions but on the reverse my actions have the ability to control her, the point being that people who know one another well enough often have great control over the other and help to cover the weak spots of the other. I believe we are off to the beach this weekend to listen to the worlds life breath in the waves then to Church on sunday morning.
Also it has recently been requested of me that I remove an earlier post regarding Dalamars girlfriend and even issue an apology. A well thought out and even logical, to some degree, request. Truly a humble request and no doubt a heartfelt one as well. So how can I possibly say "no" to our good Dalamar? Damned easy actually, Not only do I officially say "no" I say "hell no" not a chance, but before you all boo and hiss let me tell you why. Anyone who can continually comment on another person as much as she does should be prepared to take the same thing from anyone else. Do not give out any more than you can take. I have time and again commented on others here but I am always ready with a defense should they come round to argue, with the exception of stupid unlogical, un-thought out arguments made by the "garcon de fille" (honestly, how stupid can a single person be?). So no, no apology and no retraction is my decision. He already knows of course but I just wanted to share with the rest of you.
Oh yes, and here is the page for my Archive, which I believe you can also find in my profile. I have posted some new things there and I will be posting some new poems and such up. It works a little different in that not every new post comes up as a seperate post, im just adding them to the original posts. I.E. poems will be found in the poem post, various stories in their own, and should I start posting some of my essays than they too will have their own. http://minitia.blogspot.com/
SVS
Sunday, October 31, 2004
As The Traveler Traveled Through The Lonely Woods He Looked Up To The Harvest Moon And Smiled, For The New Year Had Come
Quote Of The Day: "No one ever said this would be easy my dear. Magic is not something simply used by commoners, it requires all the things which women do not normally posses; logic, reason, rationality, commitment to a single purpose, a willingness to do what you must to gain your goal, and above all the obtaining of knowledge above all other matters. So you see, yours is not the gender to wield such power." ~Lord Overon Minite I
Id explain the quote but it'd give away too much about something im writing. At any rate its not necessairly true anyway. Tonight I watched "Bram Stokers: Dracula" (the movie) and I can never forget how much I love both it and the book. Mr. Stoker truly understood the nature of good and evil, what it is to love so deeply and care so much for one person that even death itself cannot stop you. No man living can truly say that, even me, for how many of us can say that we would defy god himself, death, life, and all other things for the single purpose of being with the one you love? Hard to comprehend it is. Love is something that has recently been re-ignited within the heavens of my mind, brought to life anew by the presence of divinity within my life. I have loved only twice thus far in my life, the first was long and ultimately fruitless but may the spirits above and whatever god there be let this second love bare the fruit of my labors. If I lose this time, I may end ip losing more than I am willing to. With the last loss I lost only a bit of pride and no more but this time i may end up losing something wonderful, trusted, and beautiful in every sense of the word that that entails. I call out to each and every one of you in your aid and insight into this, let your minds and ideas come together as one unto me so that I may form a better understanding from the conglomerate knowledge which you collectively posses.
Oh yeah, by the way, I moved the coutner to below my profile. Yep we've made it past 1200 already. In the lesser amount of time that we have all gathered here to read my thoughts and ideas we have grown bigger than even the wonderful, beautiful, and talented Angel's Blog which inspired yours truly, the one and only Lord Shawn, to create this masterpiece. So in honor of Angel I have began writing again, this time in the form of "The Journals of Lady Chantal". I will post this in The Archive as soon as I can along with some new poems and maybe some other writings and musings of mine. But for now I bid you all good night and more importantly a wonderful All Hallows Eve, a happy Halloween, a divine All Saints Day, and a "get bent" to all of you who recognize no holiday this time of the year.
Id explain the quote but it'd give away too much about something im writing. At any rate its not necessairly true anyway. Tonight I watched "Bram Stokers: Dracula" (the movie) and I can never forget how much I love both it and the book. Mr. Stoker truly understood the nature of good and evil, what it is to love so deeply and care so much for one person that even death itself cannot stop you. No man living can truly say that, even me, for how many of us can say that we would defy god himself, death, life, and all other things for the single purpose of being with the one you love? Hard to comprehend it is. Love is something that has recently been re-ignited within the heavens of my mind, brought to life anew by the presence of divinity within my life. I have loved only twice thus far in my life, the first was long and ultimately fruitless but may the spirits above and whatever god there be let this second love bare the fruit of my labors. If I lose this time, I may end ip losing more than I am willing to. With the last loss I lost only a bit of pride and no more but this time i may end up losing something wonderful, trusted, and beautiful in every sense of the word that that entails. I call out to each and every one of you in your aid and insight into this, let your minds and ideas come together as one unto me so that I may form a better understanding from the conglomerate knowledge which you collectively posses.
Oh yeah, by the way, I moved the coutner to below my profile. Yep we've made it past 1200 already. In the lesser amount of time that we have all gathered here to read my thoughts and ideas we have grown bigger than even the wonderful, beautiful, and talented Angel's Blog which inspired yours truly, the one and only Lord Shawn, to create this masterpiece. So in honor of Angel I have began writing again, this time in the form of "The Journals of Lady Chantal". I will post this in The Archive as soon as I can along with some new poems and maybe some other writings and musings of mine. But for now I bid you all good night and more importantly a wonderful All Hallows Eve, a happy Halloween, a divine All Saints Day, and a "get bent" to all of you who recognize no holiday this time of the year.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
With Re-Newed Spirits The Traveler Started Down The Chosen Path, Sword Held High And Shield In Hand
Quote Of The Day: "Get it into your head once and for all, my simple and very fainthearted fellow, that what fools call humanness is nothing but a weakness born of fear and egoism; that this chimerical virtue, enslaving only weak men, is unknown to those whose character is formed by stoicism, courage, and philosophy." ~The Marquis De Sade
Yep, two entries in just one single day. I must admit I feel rather good today, though I easily could have gone the other way. Tonight I come to speak about arrogance and humility. Many people describe me as arrogant, others simply say "ass", some even think themself intelligent enough to use two syllables words like "pompuous ass". What do I think? how do I respond to that? Normally I shrug it off or agree but I think I have a better way to answer my critics. Get some semblence of intelligence you dumbasses. That is how I answer them now. Am I arrogant? Yes. Should it matter? No, I am a confident being who believes himself capable of great things. That is much more than i can say for others who question their worth and themselves. This is not true for all of you of course. Some of you have my protection of my own wrath and anger, Angel for one, though she is not without her own defences. But for you who want to criticise me, then by all means go ahead but do it with intelligence, I have no time for idiots. But what makes me so confident? I am confident becuase I know I am capable of so much, that I am maintain a level of purity and honor not seen in most, and that I am a good and honest person at heart, that I defend my friends, I honor my enemies. But to all of you that think I need to be more humble than by all means try your best, if you are confident in your thought then be strong enough to back it up with actions.
SVS
Yep, two entries in just one single day. I must admit I feel rather good today, though I easily could have gone the other way. Tonight I come to speak about arrogance and humility. Many people describe me as arrogant, others simply say "ass", some even think themself intelligent enough to use two syllables words like "pompuous ass". What do I think? how do I respond to that? Normally I shrug it off or agree but I think I have a better way to answer my critics. Get some semblence of intelligence you dumbasses. That is how I answer them now. Am I arrogant? Yes. Should it matter? No, I am a confident being who believes himself capable of great things. That is much more than i can say for others who question their worth and themselves. This is not true for all of you of course. Some of you have my protection of my own wrath and anger, Angel for one, though she is not without her own defences. But for you who want to criticise me, then by all means go ahead but do it with intelligence, I have no time for idiots. But what makes me so confident? I am confident becuase I know I am capable of so much, that I am maintain a level of purity and honor not seen in most, and that I am a good and honest person at heart, that I defend my friends, I honor my enemies. But to all of you that think I need to be more humble than by all means try your best, if you are confident in your thought then be strong enough to back it up with actions.
SVS
Awakening From A Long And Interesting Dream The Traveler Knew Now A New Path Lay Before Him, One That Could Lead To Great Reward Or Terrible Humility
Quote Of The Day: "Our success has really been based on partnerships from the very beginning." ~William H. Gates
How very true, though I dont think Mr. Gates quite meant it the way I am interrpreting it. I see this more of a quote about human partnerships, but then again even in the business world the principal is still the same basic one, that we need close knit partnerships to survive and prosper. Imagine what you would be without the people around you, where you would have gotten. I can honestly say that without the support of others I would easily have fallen from my esteemed grace more than a few times but it is because fo those others that I retain my pride, my confidence, and my purity of body and spirit. Scoff all you'd like but look around you at those who barely know their own existence, those who walk listlessly down the path of life and never dare to test the fires and get singed a little. Those who tell you life is not a game or at least comprable to one do not know what it is to live. We each play it differently, and some games are even compatible, others are not, and we seek out our own or similar games. As many can easily surmize my game is Chess, and poker to a much esser extent. Chess because I am calculating and can see a step ahead of others, and I am very good at it. Poker because of the calculation, but it is my assesment of the risk involved in actions that tend to make me a far too cautious poker player. One might say that with my right hand I set the board while I deal the cards with my left, the left being my weaker and less favored hand. But what happens when you meet people who play the same or similar games? Well in the world of games the idea is to win and crush your opponent but thats not always the best way to have fun, the fun comes in playing another player who can bring you to a standstill and sometimes its even fun to lose. In friend we seek out the game to keep playing, never to have a standstill or to lose, but to continue enjoying the game itself. In an enemy we seek to utterly destroy and gain advantage over. But in a lover or mate we seek to either maintain a standstill or we sabotage ourselves to lose but can never truly realize that. Now the better question, how often do I win? The answer? More often than not. How often do I lose? Only on ocassion. How often do I sabotage myself or come to a standstill? Rarely if ever. I have always held the belief that a "loss" is defined by when you do not win. Not when your opponent wins and you do not but when you do not win. This means that I have long considered standstills a loss. As everyone knows, I absolutely hate to lose, its utterly appalling to me. But in examining some things I realize that there are times when I lose and i never seem to care, or I am fought to a standstill and I do not care. These are the times when I am around Angel and speaking with her or when I am arguing with Stafire. I will not speculate about this odd behavior in me concerning Angel, but I shall with Starfire. I see much of myself in Starfire, and how could I help but feel some pride at knowing that at least I have lost or gotten a standstill from such a worthy opponent that shares much of my traits. Of course defeat in Starfire always comes as somewhat of a shock to me, because it means that i too can lose and I see my own weaknesses reflected in that. We are not the same person of course but in being so much alike it is disturbing to see a loss there even if that loss is to me. This is not so with Angel, though I can speculate as to why it is so, but I will refrain from that. I will return later this evening to speak more but for now Kyrie Eleison per Mia Culpa.
SVS
How very true, though I dont think Mr. Gates quite meant it the way I am interrpreting it. I see this more of a quote about human partnerships, but then again even in the business world the principal is still the same basic one, that we need close knit partnerships to survive and prosper. Imagine what you would be without the people around you, where you would have gotten. I can honestly say that without the support of others I would easily have fallen from my esteemed grace more than a few times but it is because fo those others that I retain my pride, my confidence, and my purity of body and spirit. Scoff all you'd like but look around you at those who barely know their own existence, those who walk listlessly down the path of life and never dare to test the fires and get singed a little. Those who tell you life is not a game or at least comprable to one do not know what it is to live. We each play it differently, and some games are even compatible, others are not, and we seek out our own or similar games. As many can easily surmize my game is Chess, and poker to a much esser extent. Chess because I am calculating and can see a step ahead of others, and I am very good at it. Poker because of the calculation, but it is my assesment of the risk involved in actions that tend to make me a far too cautious poker player. One might say that with my right hand I set the board while I deal the cards with my left, the left being my weaker and less favored hand. But what happens when you meet people who play the same or similar games? Well in the world of games the idea is to win and crush your opponent but thats not always the best way to have fun, the fun comes in playing another player who can bring you to a standstill and sometimes its even fun to lose. In friend we seek out the game to keep playing, never to have a standstill or to lose, but to continue enjoying the game itself. In an enemy we seek to utterly destroy and gain advantage over. But in a lover or mate we seek to either maintain a standstill or we sabotage ourselves to lose but can never truly realize that. Now the better question, how often do I win? The answer? More often than not. How often do I lose? Only on ocassion. How often do I sabotage myself or come to a standstill? Rarely if ever. I have always held the belief that a "loss" is defined by when you do not win. Not when your opponent wins and you do not but when you do not win. This means that I have long considered standstills a loss. As everyone knows, I absolutely hate to lose, its utterly appalling to me. But in examining some things I realize that there are times when I lose and i never seem to care, or I am fought to a standstill and I do not care. These are the times when I am around Angel and speaking with her or when I am arguing with Stafire. I will not speculate about this odd behavior in me concerning Angel, but I shall with Starfire. I see much of myself in Starfire, and how could I help but feel some pride at knowing that at least I have lost or gotten a standstill from such a worthy opponent that shares much of my traits. Of course defeat in Starfire always comes as somewhat of a shock to me, because it means that i too can lose and I see my own weaknesses reflected in that. We are not the same person of course but in being so much alike it is disturbing to see a loss there even if that loss is to me. This is not so with Angel, though I can speculate as to why it is so, but I will refrain from that. I will return later this evening to speak more but for now Kyrie Eleison per Mia Culpa.
SVS
Monday, October 25, 2004
The Traveler Seemed Entranced And Enscorcelled By The Bright Angel Before Him
Quote Of The Day: "Relationships are like Rome. Difficult to start out, incredible during the prosperity of the 'Golden Age', and unbearable during the fall. Then, a new kingdom will come along and the whole process will repeat itself until you come across a kingdom like Egypt.. that thrives, and continues to flourish. This kingdom will become your best friend, your soulmate, and your love."
A truly truthful and lovely quote if ever there was one. Hello friends. Tonight I come to you in a humble mood for that is what the power of certain emotions invokes in a person. Before I delve into that I want to go through some other matters of greater importance. First and foremost is the On Broadway Theatre’s production of “Dracula”. Many of you know that I swore id never go near it and there was no way in all of frosty ass hell id go to see it. However it appears I was mistaken for I have seen it twice now and I did enjoy myself both times. But before your judgments come down upon me let me first explain. First I had no interest in the show itself what so ever, the thing that compelled me to go was the fact that Angel was in it as a vampress and as Mina Harker, both of which she gave a stunning preformance. My thoughts as to the rest of the show are less than encouraging but seeing her was all that mattered. Angel is a wonferdul actress, I encourage you all to go see it if for no more reason than to watch her. I would take the time here normally to point out that a certain somes girlfriend is wrong about Angel but I dont want to stir up more enemies...........Wait..........I love enemies................and I love arguements..........and ya know what? Someone should defend Angel, especially since she hasnt done anything. Ok then, so the girlfriend I am referring to is the Girlfriend of Dalamar. We shall call her Jenna, for various literary reasons. So this Jenna has used her own blog to bitch about Angel and to say that she is less than virtuous if you catch my meaning. Well this coming from a short bitchy girl who wears an eyebrow ring and clothes that are too small for her own good. Dalamar, im sorry but Angel doesnt deserve the treatment Jenna gives her. I find Jenna to be a faux intellectual, and a snobby self centered little princess hardly worth more than cheap trinkets and clothing she wears. If she were not with Dalamar I would accuse her of the same things she accuses our good Angel of. Let she who is without sin cast the first stone, wait.... not so fast there little girl put the rock down. Again, Dalamar I am sorry. Let me educate the mis-informed. Our dearest Angel has no true interest in Dalamar sexually or romantically. While she is with someone less than worthy of her, she is certainly no interested in Dalamar other than the average friendly gestures. Yes Angel can seem overly friendly sometimes but anyone with intelligence above the average chipmunk would know that. Those who know her well know that she is anything but arrogant, everything but mean, and more than courteous. So to all her critics, please if you wish to find faults or try and attack someones moral characters then you are more than welcome to come fight with me. Only cowards and fools attack a lady even verbally, however I welcome all cowards and fools. Besides, your only asking for trouble with Angel, for even Angels wield large weapons and are anything but defensless.
SVS
A truly truthful and lovely quote if ever there was one. Hello friends. Tonight I come to you in a humble mood for that is what the power of certain emotions invokes in a person. Before I delve into that I want to go through some other matters of greater importance. First and foremost is the On Broadway Theatre’s production of “Dracula”. Many of you know that I swore id never go near it and there was no way in all of frosty ass hell id go to see it. However it appears I was mistaken for I have seen it twice now and I did enjoy myself both times. But before your judgments come down upon me let me first explain. First I had no interest in the show itself what so ever, the thing that compelled me to go was the fact that Angel was in it as a vampress and as Mina Harker, both of which she gave a stunning preformance. My thoughts as to the rest of the show are less than encouraging but seeing her was all that mattered. Angel is a wonferdul actress, I encourage you all to go see it if for no more reason than to watch her. I would take the time here normally to point out that a certain somes girlfriend is wrong about Angel but I dont want to stir up more enemies...........Wait..........I love enemies................and I love arguements..........and ya know what? Someone should defend Angel, especially since she hasnt done anything. Ok then, so the girlfriend I am referring to is the Girlfriend of Dalamar. We shall call her Jenna, for various literary reasons. So this Jenna has used her own blog to bitch about Angel and to say that she is less than virtuous if you catch my meaning. Well this coming from a short bitchy girl who wears an eyebrow ring and clothes that are too small for her own good. Dalamar, im sorry but Angel doesnt deserve the treatment Jenna gives her. I find Jenna to be a faux intellectual, and a snobby self centered little princess hardly worth more than cheap trinkets and clothing she wears. If she were not with Dalamar I would accuse her of the same things she accuses our good Angel of. Let she who is without sin cast the first stone, wait.... not so fast there little girl put the rock down. Again, Dalamar I am sorry. Let me educate the mis-informed. Our dearest Angel has no true interest in Dalamar sexually or romantically. While she is with someone less than worthy of her, she is certainly no interested in Dalamar other than the average friendly gestures. Yes Angel can seem overly friendly sometimes but anyone with intelligence above the average chipmunk would know that. Those who know her well know that she is anything but arrogant, everything but mean, and more than courteous. So to all her critics, please if you wish to find faults or try and attack someones moral characters then you are more than welcome to come fight with me. Only cowards and fools attack a lady even verbally, however I welcome all cowards and fools. Besides, your only asking for trouble with Angel, for even Angels wield large weapons and are anything but defensless.
SVS
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Though The Traveler Felt Sorrow Within He Smiled Because He Could Feel That At Least
Quote Of The Day: "There's a certain way a man looks at the woman he loves. The man looks like a boy on his birthday and he treats the woman like she is a gift that he has waited so long to have and he cant wait to see what the treasure is inside......" 100 girls
I both loved and hated the movie that this quote came from. On one hand it reveals truth about the interactions of men and women in romatic and non-romatic settings, often times showing us the exact truth of what lies beneath other words and conversations. While on the other hand it gives unreal perceptions of sexual intimacy and social proceedings, it gives us examples of fantastical situations that dont typically happen in an everyday situation. I do like its description of sex and how it can often be described, "We made that kinda love where you just laugh together and your bodies make that farting noise when air gets trapped in between you." I like this because it provides an example of a potentially embarrasing situation during a very intimate encounter that you will not often hear mentioned in romance movies where people have perfect sex. But on to the main quote for today. This is true, isnt it guys? Dont we look at the woman of our dearest affections and see her with eyes that hold her as something akin to a goddess? I certainly hold this to be true, that you look at her no matter where you are or what your doing and you just smile because she's there. You smile because your near her, she could talk about anything in the entire world but you'll smile because you can hear her voice and see that face that alights an inner flame within you. You smile like a boy at his birthday because as far as your concerned just the privelage to be near her is the greatest gift you can possibly recieve. Now this doesnt mean that, at other times, you wont argue or say things to anger or even hurt one another because not everbody gets along perfectly 100% of the time, and besides, who would want to? Sometimes it is those fights that bring you closer together and help you too realize what is special about one another and in so doing ignites more passion for that opposite sex. Take all of this with a bit of sand folks because I am a poet and writer so naturally everything gets a bit of flare and I do tend to mix inner thoughts and things that are generally on my mind with my words. And if it sounds like im a tad zealous about this subject lately, well its probably cause I am, wanna know why? Well you just find me and ask me and ill tell you a little secret. Sometimes love is about appreciating the changes in the other person, seeing how they have matured and then re-evaluating your affections and finding you love them all the more. I think what many people get confused about these days is comfortability. Love isnt just about being comfortable around someone because you've grown acustomed to them or because you think its daring, trendy, or interesting to be with them. Those are the things that constitute faux love.
I both loved and hated the movie that this quote came from. On one hand it reveals truth about the interactions of men and women in romatic and non-romatic settings, often times showing us the exact truth of what lies beneath other words and conversations. While on the other hand it gives unreal perceptions of sexual intimacy and social proceedings, it gives us examples of fantastical situations that dont typically happen in an everyday situation. I do like its description of sex and how it can often be described, "We made that kinda love where you just laugh together and your bodies make that farting noise when air gets trapped in between you." I like this because it provides an example of a potentially embarrasing situation during a very intimate encounter that you will not often hear mentioned in romance movies where people have perfect sex. But on to the main quote for today. This is true, isnt it guys? Dont we look at the woman of our dearest affections and see her with eyes that hold her as something akin to a goddess? I certainly hold this to be true, that you look at her no matter where you are or what your doing and you just smile because she's there. You smile because your near her, she could talk about anything in the entire world but you'll smile because you can hear her voice and see that face that alights an inner flame within you. You smile like a boy at his birthday because as far as your concerned just the privelage to be near her is the greatest gift you can possibly recieve. Now this doesnt mean that, at other times, you wont argue or say things to anger or even hurt one another because not everbody gets along perfectly 100% of the time, and besides, who would want to? Sometimes it is those fights that bring you closer together and help you too realize what is special about one another and in so doing ignites more passion for that opposite sex. Take all of this with a bit of sand folks because I am a poet and writer so naturally everything gets a bit of flare and I do tend to mix inner thoughts and things that are generally on my mind with my words. And if it sounds like im a tad zealous about this subject lately, well its probably cause I am, wanna know why? Well you just find me and ask me and ill tell you a little secret. Sometimes love is about appreciating the changes in the other person, seeing how they have matured and then re-evaluating your affections and finding you love them all the more. I think what many people get confused about these days is comfortability. Love isnt just about being comfortable around someone because you've grown acustomed to them or because you think its daring, trendy, or interesting to be with them. Those are the things that constitute faux love.
Wistfully The Traveler Smiled To Himself As He Walked His Path
Quote Of The Day: "Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up." -James Baldwin
A truely lovely and factful quote. Love is truly a growing action, something that you are continually developing upon and seeking to improve no matter what the type of love. This holds true for something as simple as a crush to real unrequoited love, as well as reciprocated love and lust. My personal belief in love is that you cannot truly be in love until you can imagine yourself and your loved one old together but still holding the same passion for her as you did when you were young and stupid. But what happens when you can do that but the other person cant? Thats a good question, one for which I have no definate answer for, come ask me again in 40-50 years and ill let you know exactly what happens. But from my guess, you will measure everyone against that person and you will never find their match though if your lucky you'll find something different. I suppose part of the beauty is that you will forever love that person within the deepest depths of your heart, even if you wanted to you can never get rid of the love that was once the most prevalent thing in the world when you heard the lilt of her voice or stared into her eyes and saw a powerful and passionate soul staring back at you. It is when the sound of that voice can echo in your midn no matter how long its beens ince you last heard it, or knowing the exact and precise arch of her smile and the way her cheeks warm just the slightest and have a pinkish hue when she laughs. More important is the smile these things about her brings to your own face. Ya know at this point I dont even remember what I was talking about, lol. Entertain yourself for the moment until I think of something else to talk about.
SVS
A truely lovely and factful quote. Love is truly a growing action, something that you are continually developing upon and seeking to improve no matter what the type of love. This holds true for something as simple as a crush to real unrequoited love, as well as reciprocated love and lust. My personal belief in love is that you cannot truly be in love until you can imagine yourself and your loved one old together but still holding the same passion for her as you did when you were young and stupid. But what happens when you can do that but the other person cant? Thats a good question, one for which I have no definate answer for, come ask me again in 40-50 years and ill let you know exactly what happens. But from my guess, you will measure everyone against that person and you will never find their match though if your lucky you'll find something different. I suppose part of the beauty is that you will forever love that person within the deepest depths of your heart, even if you wanted to you can never get rid of the love that was once the most prevalent thing in the world when you heard the lilt of her voice or stared into her eyes and saw a powerful and passionate soul staring back at you. It is when the sound of that voice can echo in your midn no matter how long its beens ince you last heard it, or knowing the exact and precise arch of her smile and the way her cheeks warm just the slightest and have a pinkish hue when she laughs. More important is the smile these things about her brings to your own face. Ya know at this point I dont even remember what I was talking about, lol. Entertain yourself for the moment until I think of something else to talk about.
SVS
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Closing His Cloak And Pulling Down The Hood, Our Traveler Closed Himself Off To The World, Preferring To Reflect Inward
Quote Of The Day: ""The woods are lovely, dark and deep.But I have promises to keep,And miles to go before I sleep And miles to go before I sleep." Robert Frost 'Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening'
A question I have been asked a lot by different people after many years is whom my favorite author and poet is or which is my favorite book or poem. In truth I dont think ill ever be able to pick a favorite in either but I would have to say that Robert Frost is definately way towards the top of my poet list. 'Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening' and 'The Road Not Taken' are two of my favorite poems. Frost was one of the poets who could capture your mind and senses with the simplest of words. He is one of those classical poets that can make you smile and feel pleasent and deep feelings.
After returning from my vacation and having the summer to think I am ready to return to finish my classes at this pitiful excuse for a college. The sooner I finish my classes here at SOCC the sooner I can get to a better college (hopefully PSU, possibly UofO) here in Oregon then eventually to NYU, or GeorgeTown University. Im suffocating here, drowning in a sea of useless culture. The theatres here utterly suck, the movie cinemas arent that much better. I want to be in a city where I can go to shows, movies, and date a wide variety of people and make friends with new people. Right now I consider only three people to be truly good friends whom I cant trust. Mr. Happy, Ms. Quiet, and Lips (people who live here that is otherwise i'd include StarFire). The rest have fallen to ruin and become something less than true friends. Private Jackass and I no longer have common ground on which to speak. Our fallen Angel is no longer speaking to us and that is fine for she and her miserable excuse for a male companion may have one another and stay abord this sinking ship in blind bliss, too many time have I attempted to be civil and stay a friend when she refuses to have contact, call, or do anything as friends. So be it to the rest of them who are below mentioning. You cannot help the helpless and it is useless to try so I turn my back in order to face the rest of the world and see with open eyes both the good and the bad. As Mr. Frost once said "I can sum up life in three words: It Goes On" . My saluatations to those friends who are leaving this year; Lips, Horse Boy, and Chiuaua Man. Truly my salute to Chiuaua Man for having attained his lady love only to have realized she was not for him, "Tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all." it takes great strength to see the truth of our lives.
Now one thing I know we all see a lot of is those "Support Our Troops" signs and posts everywhere including many many blogs. Well id like to take this time to post my own
DO NOT SUPPORT OUR TROOPS, SUPPORT THE PRESERVATION OF ALL HUMAN LIFE EVERYWHERE. SUPPORT NO PRESIDENT WHO WOULD BRING WAR UNPROVOKED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OUR NATIONS HISTORY. BE A PATRIOT AND DO NOT SUPPORT THE WAR OR OUR TROOPS
Support our troops indeed, bah stupid blather. Support instead the freedom of choice this counrty professes to have been founded upon even if the choice of others differs from your own. Let no one tell you that you are un-patriotic for not supporting our war mongering president and his personal vendetta against Iraq and his quest to impose American authority over those who do not wish it. To be truly patriotic is to question the government whom you live under. Another election is soon to be upon us, support whichever candidate whom you think can help us the most and lead us towards a brighter more peacful future, do not be pressured by either side, choose for yourself. For me, I choose Kerry because out of the two I believe him to be the lesser of two evils. But do not let these military personell and sad excuses for wanna be military personel influence you with their talk of how much we are wanted in some countries because you hear only one side of a very very complicated issue. Know that killing, no matter the reason, is murder even if it is in the name of war, patriotic duty, or God itself, for murder is murder. Let no party, republican or democrat truly hold ultimate sway over your future because only a balance can lead us to where we will be the safest. Support a return to traditional values and a more moralistic society but also support ones right to choose their sexual orientation, support a womans right to choose whether to birth her child or not, support same sex marriages and let no one person be left out of the warm embrace of a forgiving and understanding society. If we are to truly be the worlds greatest nation let us also be the worlds most enlightened society which understands that we are all different in many ways and let us forgive the grievances of the past. Let racism and sexism become words that we teach our children in history classes. Let there be equality for the sexes but do realize that men and women have their differences. Worship whatever god you choose and let no one tell you that you are wrong or a heathen because not oen person alive on this earth today knows the truth of our creation or what happens when we cease to breathe another breath because all we can do is speculate with no true proof either way. Keep an open mind though, because anything is possible.
SVS
A question I have been asked a lot by different people after many years is whom my favorite author and poet is or which is my favorite book or poem. In truth I dont think ill ever be able to pick a favorite in either but I would have to say that Robert Frost is definately way towards the top of my poet list. 'Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening' and 'The Road Not Taken' are two of my favorite poems. Frost was one of the poets who could capture your mind and senses with the simplest of words. He is one of those classical poets that can make you smile and feel pleasent and deep feelings.
After returning from my vacation and having the summer to think I am ready to return to finish my classes at this pitiful excuse for a college. The sooner I finish my classes here at SOCC the sooner I can get to a better college (hopefully PSU, possibly UofO) here in Oregon then eventually to NYU, or GeorgeTown University. Im suffocating here, drowning in a sea of useless culture. The theatres here utterly suck, the movie cinemas arent that much better. I want to be in a city where I can go to shows, movies, and date a wide variety of people and make friends with new people. Right now I consider only three people to be truly good friends whom I cant trust. Mr. Happy, Ms. Quiet, and Lips (people who live here that is otherwise i'd include StarFire). The rest have fallen to ruin and become something less than true friends. Private Jackass and I no longer have common ground on which to speak. Our fallen Angel is no longer speaking to us and that is fine for she and her miserable excuse for a male companion may have one another and stay abord this sinking ship in blind bliss, too many time have I attempted to be civil and stay a friend when she refuses to have contact, call, or do anything as friends. So be it to the rest of them who are below mentioning. You cannot help the helpless and it is useless to try so I turn my back in order to face the rest of the world and see with open eyes both the good and the bad. As Mr. Frost once said "I can sum up life in three words: It Goes On" . My saluatations to those friends who are leaving this year; Lips, Horse Boy, and Chiuaua Man. Truly my salute to Chiuaua Man for having attained his lady love only to have realized she was not for him, "Tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all." it takes great strength to see the truth of our lives.
Now one thing I know we all see a lot of is those "Support Our Troops" signs and posts everywhere including many many blogs. Well id like to take this time to post my own
DO NOT SUPPORT OUR TROOPS, SUPPORT THE PRESERVATION OF ALL HUMAN LIFE EVERYWHERE. SUPPORT NO PRESIDENT WHO WOULD BRING WAR UNPROVOKED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OUR NATIONS HISTORY. BE A PATRIOT AND DO NOT SUPPORT THE WAR OR OUR TROOPS
Support our troops indeed, bah stupid blather. Support instead the freedom of choice this counrty professes to have been founded upon even if the choice of others differs from your own. Let no one tell you that you are un-patriotic for not supporting our war mongering president and his personal vendetta against Iraq and his quest to impose American authority over those who do not wish it. To be truly patriotic is to question the government whom you live under. Another election is soon to be upon us, support whichever candidate whom you think can help us the most and lead us towards a brighter more peacful future, do not be pressured by either side, choose for yourself. For me, I choose Kerry because out of the two I believe him to be the lesser of two evils. But do not let these military personell and sad excuses for wanna be military personel influence you with their talk of how much we are wanted in some countries because you hear only one side of a very very complicated issue. Know that killing, no matter the reason, is murder even if it is in the name of war, patriotic duty, or God itself, for murder is murder. Let no party, republican or democrat truly hold ultimate sway over your future because only a balance can lead us to where we will be the safest. Support a return to traditional values and a more moralistic society but also support ones right to choose their sexual orientation, support a womans right to choose whether to birth her child or not, support same sex marriages and let no one person be left out of the warm embrace of a forgiving and understanding society. If we are to truly be the worlds greatest nation let us also be the worlds most enlightened society which understands that we are all different in many ways and let us forgive the grievances of the past. Let racism and sexism become words that we teach our children in history classes. Let there be equality for the sexes but do realize that men and women have their differences. Worship whatever god you choose and let no one tell you that you are wrong or a heathen because not oen person alive on this earth today knows the truth of our creation or what happens when we cease to breathe another breath because all we can do is speculate with no true proof either way. Keep an open mind though, because anything is possible.
SVS
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Thursday, July 22, 2004
The Traveler Seemed to Emerge From A Good Dream, Well Rested And Ready To Face The World Anew
Quote Of The Day: "What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas" -anonymous
Once more I speak again from high above the airy mountain tops and far above the puffy white clouds. Yes, my vacation is fast coming to a close but fret not dear friends for I am returning rested and good mannered. While the Vegas summer is not a thing I relish, I did find the consant warmth to be somewhat appealing. And YES, Lord Shawn did actually wear shorts everyday and nto slack except for the first and last days. But let us discuss the subsance of the trip itself, what did I do, where did I go, what did I see? All that kind of things.
On the first night I went up to the room and unloaded all my baggage, then Lips and I explored the various casionos next to ours and our own. We probably got to bed somewhere around 2-3am. As usual my hotel room felt like a tomb, as I keep it as cold as possible.
The second day we got up and wandered around a bit more, went looking for different shows that might be interesting and fun to see. Vegas certainly offers just about everything you could possibly want to see. We also did a bit of shopping then went over to the Las Vegas Hilton and went to the Star Trek: Experience attraction, which was pretty good all in all. Of course I am an avid fan, though I don’t often like to publicly admit it. We browsed the Stre Trek gift shop and I think he might have got a few things. We visited quite a few of the other casions along The Strip. Caesrars, The Bellagio, and The Venetian were certainly the more upscale hotels but I found the Mirage, Treasure Island, Luxor, and MGM Grand to be quite appealing. Along the way we stopped to watch MGM’s famous live lions. Let me take a moment to discuss the lions because I found them to be quite fascinating. I saw the males onl once but the females were far on display more often. After watching the females it amazed me. These female creatures are far more powerful then some of the stronger humans I know, far faster, they can jump a full 14 feet in the air, run over 40 mph, and kill in a single bite. Yet for all their prowess in killing and fighting we still see the obvious femininity present in these lionesses and uet they still eat less than the males but maintain a higher energy level. Lions also mate far more often then most creatures, how fascinating these creatures are when compared to their human captors.
Wednesday we didn’t do a whole lot, I preferred to spend the latter part of the sunlight hours in the room with my laptop here, the heat and I have never agreed with one another. We went out for dinner later and browsed some of the stores along the strip, M&M World, Coca Cola World, Margaritaville, and a few others, we came back through the Tropicanna and won a air of tickets to a magic show, a topless female dance revue (yeah yeah yeah, I know I said I don’t go to strip clubs but it wasn’t exactly a strip club they were topless when they came out so it really didn’t matter, besides their breasts weren’t all that great anyway) but found out we had to go to a time share thing before we got our free show and buffet tickets. That night we went to a Comedy Club and it was pretty good, they had some pretty decent comics.
On Thursday we went to the time share thing and got our tickets. We kinda wandered here and there and went on the New York New York roller coaster, then had some lunch and then saw the magic show, which was pretty good, especially for being free. We beat it back over to the Hilton so I could get some things from the Star Trek gift shop before we left. Then we came back for dinner before the second show. Now at this point im gonna take some time to review that second show with you. I cant say that it was terrible or that none of those involved really had that bad of talent but there was something wholly un-needed from it, hmmmmmmmm, what could it be you ask? What was that elusive thing that really kind of stuck out as……dare I say gratuitous? Hmmmm perhaps it may have been the fact that they were??????? TOPLESS?????? First of all if your going to do a topless show you may want to hire dancers that have something to show off before they remove their tops, second of all you may want to feed your dancers once in a while cause when you can damned near see their organs through the thin white skin that might just be a problem……cough…Mary Kate…..cough. Anyway, it wasn’t that bad as far as the show itself went. They were quite well coordinated, the male dancers were amazing in their skill, but the main guy who spoke and sang the most reminded me somewhat of that Seacrest guy from American Idol. His female co-star was pretty decent, she had a great voice and an ok body, but they did their parts well enough I suppose. But it was the little half Mexican guy in the middle of the show that really stood out as the best. He was something of a throw back to the more carnival (not carnal) days of Vegas, a juggler and performance artist to entertain, there to allow the other performers to get their second act ready. I probably should have said this earlier but the show was supposed to take the audience through the history of women and show how women have always been a vital part of life (specifically beautiful women). I cannot help but agree with the message, though its delivery could have a few bugs worked out of it. Anyway, after the topless show Lips and I went to a midnight first showing of M. Night Shamylans “The Village” which was really good, very suspenseful, and quite thought provoking, like most of his movies.
Of the Twin Cities of Sin (Vegas and Reno) it is truly Vegas that reigns supreme. There are few places in the world where you can see just about all 7 deadly sins being committed all at once and have a dollar amount attached to it. What curious is that I found myself quite at home there, save for the heat. You gotta love a city with so many beautiful women in it and some of them performing nightly on stages all over for the pleasure of your eyes and your mind. But it is not just the show girls who are beautiful, it is the tourists as well, each dressed in as little as possible to avoid the heat and try to catch a bronzed tan. But in all my time there did I see more than 5 redheads? NO!!!! What is the matter with that city? Why the lack of fair-haired beauties? Perhaps its because red-heads tend to get sun burned faster, or that they do not handle the heat internally very well, hard to say. I can say one thing for Vegas, it would drastically have been more fun with a female companion, someone a tad less reserved than myself. Perhaps a trip for some boring winter? Actually I think I should like my next trip to be to New York or D.C. I know a few of you might have a question or two as to another more interesting part of my vacation, well you ma ask in a more private forum but Ill not reveal myself entirely here. I don’t think I spent more than $10 on gambling. For one or two of you I also have a gift, only because I saw something that made me laugh and think of one or two of you. StarFire, contact me sometime so I can figure out where best to send your gift, along with the other one I never got around to sending.
One thing I rather hated about The Strip, other than the horrid heat, was the guys offering cards with strippers on the front and numbers you can call to have them sent to your hotel room. Obviously this is a scam, and I probably don’t even wanna know what happens, but the guys are awfully pushy and get in your face to try and get you to take a card, helf of them don’t even speak English other than maybe “You wanna have some fun?” “You wanna party?” or “You wanna get some tonight?” But I definitely like Vegas a lot more than I do Reno, there’s just so much more to do in Vegas. One of the free shows we saw was The Sirens Of TI, a show put on y Treasure Island. Here beautiful women stood on an alabaster white pirate ship seducing a young man who had lost his way from his own ship, these women were supposed to be the deadly and desirable sirens of Greek mythos who would seduce men, conjure storms with their beautiful and seductive voices, and lure seamen to their doom. But just as the young man is being seduced, his daring captain shows up on his own ship and demands the boys release, while trying to keep the rest fo the crew from giving in to the womens song. After refusing to give the boy up the Queen of the Sirens dares the bold Captain Mac to do his worst. The good captain unleashes a volley of cannon fire on the shops containing the Sirens’s wardrobes in the town beyond. The sirens are angered and began to conjure a storm, which eventually sinks Captain Mac’s ship, but not before he utters a curse to see the Siren Queen in hell. This was all done live with only basic lighting effects and some pyrotechnics. The acting wasn’t near top-notch but for free and doing several shows a night the singing, dancing, acting, and such all came together fairly well. The Sirens have always been some of my favorite creatures in literature, none are more seductive and vulnerable to weapons yet so immensely powerful and feared.
This brings us to today, we are currently en-route back home and by the time this is posted I shall have arrived home, back in the embracing arms of the cold. It will also be about Sunday day by the time I post this.
Once more I speak again from high above the airy mountain tops and far above the puffy white clouds. Yes, my vacation is fast coming to a close but fret not dear friends for I am returning rested and good mannered. While the Vegas summer is not a thing I relish, I did find the consant warmth to be somewhat appealing. And YES, Lord Shawn did actually wear shorts everyday and nto slack except for the first and last days. But let us discuss the subsance of the trip itself, what did I do, where did I go, what did I see? All that kind of things.
On the first night I went up to the room and unloaded all my baggage, then Lips and I explored the various casionos next to ours and our own. We probably got to bed somewhere around 2-3am. As usual my hotel room felt like a tomb, as I keep it as cold as possible.
The second day we got up and wandered around a bit more, went looking for different shows that might be interesting and fun to see. Vegas certainly offers just about everything you could possibly want to see. We also did a bit of shopping then went over to the Las Vegas Hilton and went to the Star Trek: Experience attraction, which was pretty good all in all. Of course I am an avid fan, though I don’t often like to publicly admit it. We browsed the Stre Trek gift shop and I think he might have got a few things. We visited quite a few of the other casions along The Strip. Caesrars, The Bellagio, and The Venetian were certainly the more upscale hotels but I found the Mirage, Treasure Island, Luxor, and MGM Grand to be quite appealing. Along the way we stopped to watch MGM’s famous live lions. Let me take a moment to discuss the lions because I found them to be quite fascinating. I saw the males onl once but the females were far on display more often. After watching the females it amazed me. These female creatures are far more powerful then some of the stronger humans I know, far faster, they can jump a full 14 feet in the air, run over 40 mph, and kill in a single bite. Yet for all their prowess in killing and fighting we still see the obvious femininity present in these lionesses and uet they still eat less than the males but maintain a higher energy level. Lions also mate far more often then most creatures, how fascinating these creatures are when compared to their human captors.
Wednesday we didn’t do a whole lot, I preferred to spend the latter part of the sunlight hours in the room with my laptop here, the heat and I have never agreed with one another. We went out for dinner later and browsed some of the stores along the strip, M&M World, Coca Cola World, Margaritaville, and a few others, we came back through the Tropicanna and won a air of tickets to a magic show, a topless female dance revue (yeah yeah yeah, I know I said I don’t go to strip clubs but it wasn’t exactly a strip club they were topless when they came out so it really didn’t matter, besides their breasts weren’t all that great anyway) but found out we had to go to a time share thing before we got our free show and buffet tickets. That night we went to a Comedy Club and it was pretty good, they had some pretty decent comics.
On Thursday we went to the time share thing and got our tickets. We kinda wandered here and there and went on the New York New York roller coaster, then had some lunch and then saw the magic show, which was pretty good, especially for being free. We beat it back over to the Hilton so I could get some things from the Star Trek gift shop before we left. Then we came back for dinner before the second show. Now at this point im gonna take some time to review that second show with you. I cant say that it was terrible or that none of those involved really had that bad of talent but there was something wholly un-needed from it, hmmmmmmmm, what could it be you ask? What was that elusive thing that really kind of stuck out as……dare I say gratuitous? Hmmmm perhaps it may have been the fact that they were??????? TOPLESS?????? First of all if your going to do a topless show you may want to hire dancers that have something to show off before they remove their tops, second of all you may want to feed your dancers once in a while cause when you can damned near see their organs through the thin white skin that might just be a problem……cough…Mary Kate…..cough. Anyway, it wasn’t that bad as far as the show itself went. They were quite well coordinated, the male dancers were amazing in their skill, but the main guy who spoke and sang the most reminded me somewhat of that Seacrest guy from American Idol. His female co-star was pretty decent, she had a great voice and an ok body, but they did their parts well enough I suppose. But it was the little half Mexican guy in the middle of the show that really stood out as the best. He was something of a throw back to the more carnival (not carnal) days of Vegas, a juggler and performance artist to entertain, there to allow the other performers to get their second act ready. I probably should have said this earlier but the show was supposed to take the audience through the history of women and show how women have always been a vital part of life (specifically beautiful women). I cannot help but agree with the message, though its delivery could have a few bugs worked out of it. Anyway, after the topless show Lips and I went to a midnight first showing of M. Night Shamylans “The Village” which was really good, very suspenseful, and quite thought provoking, like most of his movies.
Of the Twin Cities of Sin (Vegas and Reno) it is truly Vegas that reigns supreme. There are few places in the world where you can see just about all 7 deadly sins being committed all at once and have a dollar amount attached to it. What curious is that I found myself quite at home there, save for the heat. You gotta love a city with so many beautiful women in it and some of them performing nightly on stages all over for the pleasure of your eyes and your mind. But it is not just the show girls who are beautiful, it is the tourists as well, each dressed in as little as possible to avoid the heat and try to catch a bronzed tan. But in all my time there did I see more than 5 redheads? NO!!!! What is the matter with that city? Why the lack of fair-haired beauties? Perhaps its because red-heads tend to get sun burned faster, or that they do not handle the heat internally very well, hard to say. I can say one thing for Vegas, it would drastically have been more fun with a female companion, someone a tad less reserved than myself. Perhaps a trip for some boring winter? Actually I think I should like my next trip to be to New York or D.C. I know a few of you might have a question or two as to another more interesting part of my vacation, well you ma ask in a more private forum but Ill not reveal myself entirely here. I don’t think I spent more than $10 on gambling. For one or two of you I also have a gift, only because I saw something that made me laugh and think of one or two of you. StarFire, contact me sometime so I can figure out where best to send your gift, along with the other one I never got around to sending.
One thing I rather hated about The Strip, other than the horrid heat, was the guys offering cards with strippers on the front and numbers you can call to have them sent to your hotel room. Obviously this is a scam, and I probably don’t even wanna know what happens, but the guys are awfully pushy and get in your face to try and get you to take a card, helf of them don’t even speak English other than maybe “You wanna have some fun?” “You wanna party?” or “You wanna get some tonight?” But I definitely like Vegas a lot more than I do Reno, there’s just so much more to do in Vegas. One of the free shows we saw was The Sirens Of TI, a show put on y Treasure Island. Here beautiful women stood on an alabaster white pirate ship seducing a young man who had lost his way from his own ship, these women were supposed to be the deadly and desirable sirens of Greek mythos who would seduce men, conjure storms with their beautiful and seductive voices, and lure seamen to their doom. But just as the young man is being seduced, his daring captain shows up on his own ship and demands the boys release, while trying to keep the rest fo the crew from giving in to the womens song. After refusing to give the boy up the Queen of the Sirens dares the bold Captain Mac to do his worst. The good captain unleashes a volley of cannon fire on the shops containing the Sirens’s wardrobes in the town beyond. The sirens are angered and began to conjure a storm, which eventually sinks Captain Mac’s ship, but not before he utters a curse to see the Siren Queen in hell. This was all done live with only basic lighting effects and some pyrotechnics. The acting wasn’t near top-notch but for free and doing several shows a night the singing, dancing, acting, and such all came together fairly well. The Sirens have always been some of my favorite creatures in literature, none are more seductive and vulnerable to weapons yet so immensely powerful and feared.
This brings us to today, we are currently en-route back home and by the time this is posted I shall have arrived home, back in the embracing arms of the cold. It will also be about Sunday day by the time I post this.
The Traveler Had Reached The City And Marvelld At its Wonders
Quote Of The Day: “I have always found the sight of a caged bird to be a somewhat disturbing sight” –anonymous
One must truly wonder at this quote, for the implications are many and the meanings quite deep. Of course the most obvious meaning we can find is that this person finds the sight of a caged bird to be disturbing because it hinders the birds natural freedom, the bird being one of natures most truly free creatures. I cannot help but agree with this because as I write this I am high aloft the air on wings of steel. The freedom felt, even in the cabin of a highly pressurized airplane is still something one cannot easily forget. As one might have guessed I am currently en route to Vegas for my much much much much much needed vacation. Yes, much. I am looking forward to a week in which I will do very little worrying about anything, in fact the only thing that sounds even close to as good would be camping, but given the choice this is something that I do not so often do and as such is considerably preferable.
I should inform you, dear friends, that I did manage to obtain a part in “Dracula” but it was that of Renfield, the only part I would not even give consideration to performing, judge me however you will but I utterly refuse to make a fool of myself on stage in such a manner as the role would require. As the little theatre that is putting it on doesn’t give enough consideration to its actors as to inform or offer them the roles personally or by phone I give them the same in my refusal of the role. I might have considered another role, though I doubt it because I have a tight schedule and it would only be worth it to me to cinch it even tighter if I were awarded the role I desired, that of Dracula himself. Angel did obtain her desired part of Mina Harker, to those who are wondering…I will reserve comment on Angels receiving that particular part to myself for the time being and say no more on that particular subject.
I do not wish to harp on an already tired subject but the subject of homosexuality seems fresh on my mind. Some might even wonder why I take such an odd stance, though some may think it quite obvious. I would say that for each person we have two stances, that of our professional view for other people and the view we hold in our own personal experiences (no not sexual experiences necessarily) but in our own dealings with the subject. I do believe that everyone be given a chance to choose their sexual preference but I also think that one need not choose that preference simply to spite the other sex, which is sometimes the case. I consider this a subject directly linked to love. This is often a touchy or tricky subject regarding homosexuality, is that sort of love immoral? For some, it may be, for me? I do not know because it is not something that I personally am forced to contend with, I would suppose that if a male to female relationship is capable of love then so to must male-male and female-female relationships. I would argue that in choosing the same sex relationship you are not giving fair consideration to the opposite sex, but then again who ever claimed life to be something of a fair and just nature? I would also say that in same sex relationships you should not rush headlong and bury yourself in one simply because you are afraid of being alone, sometime one must venture outside the comfort of the light to truly appreciate it. Never fear to walk alone, sometime the company is better. Though neither should you be afraid to commit yourself to another, if even for a short time, companionship in a romantic and intimate sense can be a good thing. As a writer I can understand, somewhat, the deep connection of a commitment to another person but I do not believe for one moment that I truly comprehend the entirety of it. Rather I like to think of it as a romantic notion often spoken of in literature or music. But what must it be like to feel that you cannot live without another person? How powerful that must be, often times I think people forget these types of connections in life in favor of something more shallow and manageable. How familiar that is becoming in today’s day and age, an age devoted to convenience in way, shape, and form. Today, more than ever, we are desperately in need of bold moves to revitalize our faith in love and each other. My own faith wavers in the shadow of an ever-darkening future where notions of romance and love are as becoming notions of nostalgia in a world of long ago. Take in mind, dear readers, these are not just things I am willing to say in only this forum for man of you have heard my very voice speak these words and as such my convictions are strong, much stronger than those who proclaim themselves truly conservative and fair but give no consideration to the choices of others *cough* Chihuahua Man *cough*. But what of unreciprocated love? Is it still important? A good question and certainly something more often dealt with than its famed big brother. If anything unreciprocated love is perhaps more important than true love, for it is in the giving without receiving that you find out what kind of person you truly are. We most often find that in giving our devotion when it is not wanted or needed that we are far more than we give ourselves credit for. To truly love another and give yourself to them without ever receiving that same love back is twenty times more noble and honorable than that of true reciprocated love. Never under estimate the power of love in a form, even when it is misguided. This is also true for religious devotion. But are there things in the world that can create sensations of love but not be the same? Of course there are, my favorite being that of Chocolate. It is true that 1oz of chocolate is equal to the endorphins released during 1 minute of sex, though we must not confuse the feel of one act for the other, they are both inherently different and should be viewed as such. However I would suggest that if you are feeling a bit………..excited? You might try consuming a large quantity of chocolate and see if it improves your demeanor, though it may not improve your waistline. I must really take this time to point out that the temperature in this plane is rather high and surprising for being so far above solid ground.
But for the remained of the evening I bid you all a fond farewell and promise to return safe and sound soon to give you updates on my vacation. For now I say good evening and hope that the fire of the stars give your love strength.
One must truly wonder at this quote, for the implications are many and the meanings quite deep. Of course the most obvious meaning we can find is that this person finds the sight of a caged bird to be disturbing because it hinders the birds natural freedom, the bird being one of natures most truly free creatures. I cannot help but agree with this because as I write this I am high aloft the air on wings of steel. The freedom felt, even in the cabin of a highly pressurized airplane is still something one cannot easily forget. As one might have guessed I am currently en route to Vegas for my much much much much much needed vacation. Yes, much. I am looking forward to a week in which I will do very little worrying about anything, in fact the only thing that sounds even close to as good would be camping, but given the choice this is something that I do not so often do and as such is considerably preferable.
I should inform you, dear friends, that I did manage to obtain a part in “Dracula” but it was that of Renfield, the only part I would not even give consideration to performing, judge me however you will but I utterly refuse to make a fool of myself on stage in such a manner as the role would require. As the little theatre that is putting it on doesn’t give enough consideration to its actors as to inform or offer them the roles personally or by phone I give them the same in my refusal of the role. I might have considered another role, though I doubt it because I have a tight schedule and it would only be worth it to me to cinch it even tighter if I were awarded the role I desired, that of Dracula himself. Angel did obtain her desired part of Mina Harker, to those who are wondering…I will reserve comment on Angels receiving that particular part to myself for the time being and say no more on that particular subject.
I do not wish to harp on an already tired subject but the subject of homosexuality seems fresh on my mind. Some might even wonder why I take such an odd stance, though some may think it quite obvious. I would say that for each person we have two stances, that of our professional view for other people and the view we hold in our own personal experiences (no not sexual experiences necessarily) but in our own dealings with the subject. I do believe that everyone be given a chance to choose their sexual preference but I also think that one need not choose that preference simply to spite the other sex, which is sometimes the case. I consider this a subject directly linked to love. This is often a touchy or tricky subject regarding homosexuality, is that sort of love immoral? For some, it may be, for me? I do not know because it is not something that I personally am forced to contend with, I would suppose that if a male to female relationship is capable of love then so to must male-male and female-female relationships. I would argue that in choosing the same sex relationship you are not giving fair consideration to the opposite sex, but then again who ever claimed life to be something of a fair and just nature? I would also say that in same sex relationships you should not rush headlong and bury yourself in one simply because you are afraid of being alone, sometime one must venture outside the comfort of the light to truly appreciate it. Never fear to walk alone, sometime the company is better. Though neither should you be afraid to commit yourself to another, if even for a short time, companionship in a romantic and intimate sense can be a good thing. As a writer I can understand, somewhat, the deep connection of a commitment to another person but I do not believe for one moment that I truly comprehend the entirety of it. Rather I like to think of it as a romantic notion often spoken of in literature or music. But what must it be like to feel that you cannot live without another person? How powerful that must be, often times I think people forget these types of connections in life in favor of something more shallow and manageable. How familiar that is becoming in today’s day and age, an age devoted to convenience in way, shape, and form. Today, more than ever, we are desperately in need of bold moves to revitalize our faith in love and each other. My own faith wavers in the shadow of an ever-darkening future where notions of romance and love are as becoming notions of nostalgia in a world of long ago. Take in mind, dear readers, these are not just things I am willing to say in only this forum for man of you have heard my very voice speak these words and as such my convictions are strong, much stronger than those who proclaim themselves truly conservative and fair but give no consideration to the choices of others *cough* Chihuahua Man *cough*. But what of unreciprocated love? Is it still important? A good question and certainly something more often dealt with than its famed big brother. If anything unreciprocated love is perhaps more important than true love, for it is in the giving without receiving that you find out what kind of person you truly are. We most often find that in giving our devotion when it is not wanted or needed that we are far more than we give ourselves credit for. To truly love another and give yourself to them without ever receiving that same love back is twenty times more noble and honorable than that of true reciprocated love. Never under estimate the power of love in a form, even when it is misguided. This is also true for religious devotion. But are there things in the world that can create sensations of love but not be the same? Of course there are, my favorite being that of Chocolate. It is true that 1oz of chocolate is equal to the endorphins released during 1 minute of sex, though we must not confuse the feel of one act for the other, they are both inherently different and should be viewed as such. However I would suggest that if you are feeling a bit………..excited? You might try consuming a large quantity of chocolate and see if it improves your demeanor, though it may not improve your waistline. I must really take this time to point out that the temperature in this plane is rather high and surprising for being so far above solid ground.
But for the remained of the evening I bid you all a fond farewell and promise to return safe and sound soon to give you updates on my vacation. For now I say good evening and hope that the fire of the stars give your love strength.
Ahead The Lights Of A Greaty City Shined Up From Behind Some Deserts Hills
Quote Of The Day: "The fair girl went on her knees and bent over me, fairly gloating. There was a deliberate voluptuousness which was both thrilling and repulsive, and as she arched her neck she actually licked her lips like an animal... I could feel the soft, shivering touch of the lips on the supersensitive skin of my throat, and the hard dents of two sharp teeth, just touching and pausing there." Bram Stoker's: Dracula (Chapter 3, pg. 42)
One must truly love this quote because it is more than just a simple passage from a marvelous piece of literature, it is a lesson in romance and in life. First of all the obvious is never trust a volumptuous woman whos teeth are neath your jugular. And second is that women, at heart, are ravenous animals and you'd best be sure what it is they are hunting. But must we fear such behavior in todays placid society? Perhaps, but perhaps not, surely it depends on the individual and the situation in question. However, I must say that, from observation and personal experience, that most men today do not like to be pursued by women nor do they encourage sregth in the opposite sex. I find this to be interesting behavior in men, perhaps we fear a more dominant role for women in the future? perhaps a show of more equality? Whatever the reason, I am baffled b it. While I would not want to be totally helpless or totall dominated by any woman, I do enjoy the conflict that comes with their very presence. There is much to be said for challenging ones self.
One must truly love this quote because it is more than just a simple passage from a marvelous piece of literature, it is a lesson in romance and in life. First of all the obvious is never trust a volumptuous woman whos teeth are neath your jugular. And second is that women, at heart, are ravenous animals and you'd best be sure what it is they are hunting. But must we fear such behavior in todays placid society? Perhaps, but perhaps not, surely it depends on the individual and the situation in question. However, I must say that, from observation and personal experience, that most men today do not like to be pursued by women nor do they encourage sregth in the opposite sex. I find this to be interesting behavior in men, perhaps we fear a more dominant role for women in the future? perhaps a show of more equality? Whatever the reason, I am baffled b it. While I would not want to be totally helpless or totall dominated by any woman, I do enjoy the conflict that comes with their very presence. There is much to be said for challenging ones self.
Monday, July 19, 2004
As Night Approached The Traveler Settled Down For The Eve And Watch The Heavens Above, Looking For Changes In The Stars
Quote Of The Day: "The foolish are they who live by experience, the wise are they who deny themselves experience in favor of academics and lonliness for that is the cost of intelligence." -Anonymous
I kinda like that quote, I think it is very true and very fitting. For the most part I have to say that I agree with it, certainly I would fit into the more wise category but im not entirely sure thats a good thing. Eh, at any rate its a good quote. Well im getting closer now. Just 6 days till Vegas and my vacation, really kinda lookin forward to that. Looking forward to letting my head ignore everyone and everythign else for a good long week. Dont get me wrong, I actually enjoy the challenges of life and its relationships but man sometimes it just weighs down on you when so many damned female relationships are murkier than a grease vat at McDonalds, and I should know. I think The White Lady is one of my best female relationships with StarFire and Angel coming in at close seconds and my sisters in the third. Gotta love being able to change the font color here. I hope im giving The White Lady enough credit here cause I know I dont talk about her as much as perhaps I should. Sometimes I spend a tad too much time with most of my thoughts on StarFire and Angel. Or at least so im told by other friends in my rantings to them. Lips is definately ready for this too, even though he just had a vacation to Florida, but that was with the family and there is a definate difference between family vacation and two guys in Vegas.
Oh and before I forget I got another little test result to share with all of you and frankly I was surprised by this outcome.
C'mon, "Apocalypse Now"?? Im flattered for the Brando comparison cause he was a damned good actor but im not that violent or nuts yet. I do, however, agree with the wanderer part.
SVS
I kinda like that quote, I think it is very true and very fitting. For the most part I have to say that I agree with it, certainly I would fit into the more wise category but im not entirely sure thats a good thing. Eh, at any rate its a good quote. Well im getting closer now. Just 6 days till Vegas and my vacation, really kinda lookin forward to that. Looking forward to letting my head ignore everyone and everythign else for a good long week. Dont get me wrong, I actually enjoy the challenges of life and its relationships but man sometimes it just weighs down on you when so many damned female relationships are murkier than a grease vat at McDonalds, and I should know. I think The White Lady is one of my best female relationships with StarFire and Angel coming in at close seconds and my sisters in the third. Gotta love being able to change the font color here. I hope im giving The White Lady enough credit here cause I know I dont talk about her as much as perhaps I should. Sometimes I spend a tad too much time with most of my thoughts on StarFire and Angel. Or at least so im told by other friends in my rantings to them. Lips is definately ready for this too, even though he just had a vacation to Florida, but that was with the family and there is a definate difference between family vacation and two guys in Vegas.
Oh and before I forget I got another little test result to share with all of you and frankly I was surprised by this outcome.
C'mon, "Apocalypse Now"?? Im flattered for the Brando comparison cause he was a damned good actor but im not that violent or nuts yet. I do, however, agree with the wanderer part.
SVS
Sunday, July 18, 2004
The Traveler Could Actually Smile Once More As He Walked Along The Chosen Path
Quote Of The Day: "To be, or not to be? That is the question. Whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing end them....." William Shakespeare (Hamlet)
To be like the rest or not to be like the rest? To throw ones self back into the maw of familiar madness and remember what it was to bask in the light of glory or to descend further into the dark night of the mind and there see all will make you great in thine own eyes? These are the questions that trouble this traveler today. How is it the world adn all the people in her insist that salvation from all your youthful prolems lies within the throws of lustful passion? How such a stupid concept ever got started is beyond me. Such a notion can only compound problems, logic tells us this and common sense reenforces it, countless pieces of film and literature both true and imagined help to back this truth up.
Well friends it seems that I have the opportunity to once again take up the stage for a final time and throw myself into the light of the audience. But the question is, is it worth it? Our Angel is due to be the lead female role and yours truly would be up for the title role. I wont yet say what the production is but it is a rather favored novel that Ive read more than once.
Yep, thats me. Little test there said I'm most like Gandhi, seems kinda ironic sometimes. I suppose the little description of it there I kinda agree with. Morals do matter to me and yeah I kinda like to lead by example, and perfection is definately a goal sometimes. But "do gooder"? Nah never really seen myself as a "do gooder" or hero, more like a villain sometimes or mostly just the person the hero goes to to get answers.
So what have I done lately? Well last night I went out to the beach with Mr. Happy and Ms. Quiet and she took some pictues of sunset, and animals to enter into a contest type thing at a local fair. She seems quite talented and has a great eye, certainly she needs to work on creativity but I definately see the spark of creativity in her. Then we went back to their place and I made margaritas for eveyrone and we sat and drank, talked, watched tv, and played video games. Then today I kinda just relaxed and got some sleep. Im now work at ACS and my schedule is kinda long. I work Monday's 7:30am-6:30pm then thurs-fri 8:15am-7:15pm and sat6am-5pm. Long days. But tonight I went and saw "I Robot" with The White Lady. I have come to much enjoy her company, something about that blossoming intelligence inside her attracts my mind and enraptures my spirit. Maybe I have just come to know her better and am much more kind to ehr and do not judge her but I have also come to find the way she dresses appealing. Chiuaua Man can say what he wants but I find her to be intelligent, attractive, and a joy to be around. The question I get most often though, "are you guys dating?" The answer? We are enjoying one anothers company and conversation, there is no fondling or kissing, so call it what you will. I think that sometimes in life you just need to not think too deeply about it and let things be. Such is the case here, I wont label this relationship with her, it simply is what it is. Labeling it limits it, I prefer just to think that were having fun and neither of us have a problem with it so its best just to smile and have fun.
To be like the rest or not to be like the rest? To throw ones self back into the maw of familiar madness and remember what it was to bask in the light of glory or to descend further into the dark night of the mind and there see all will make you great in thine own eyes? These are the questions that trouble this traveler today. How is it the world adn all the people in her insist that salvation from all your youthful prolems lies within the throws of lustful passion? How such a stupid concept ever got started is beyond me. Such a notion can only compound problems, logic tells us this and common sense reenforces it, countless pieces of film and literature both true and imagined help to back this truth up.
Well friends it seems that I have the opportunity to once again take up the stage for a final time and throw myself into the light of the audience. But the question is, is it worth it? Our Angel is due to be the lead female role and yours truly would be up for the title role. I wont yet say what the production is but it is a rather favored novel that Ive read more than once.
Yep, thats me. Little test there said I'm most like Gandhi, seems kinda ironic sometimes. I suppose the little description of it there I kinda agree with. Morals do matter to me and yeah I kinda like to lead by example, and perfection is definately a goal sometimes. But "do gooder"? Nah never really seen myself as a "do gooder" or hero, more like a villain sometimes or mostly just the person the hero goes to to get answers.
So what have I done lately? Well last night I went out to the beach with Mr. Happy and Ms. Quiet and she took some pictues of sunset, and animals to enter into a contest type thing at a local fair. She seems quite talented and has a great eye, certainly she needs to work on creativity but I definately see the spark of creativity in her. Then we went back to their place and I made margaritas for eveyrone and we sat and drank, talked, watched tv, and played video games. Then today I kinda just relaxed and got some sleep. Im now work at ACS and my schedule is kinda long. I work Monday's 7:30am-6:30pm then thurs-fri 8:15am-7:15pm and sat6am-5pm. Long days. But tonight I went and saw "I Robot" with The White Lady. I have come to much enjoy her company, something about that blossoming intelligence inside her attracts my mind and enraptures my spirit. Maybe I have just come to know her better and am much more kind to ehr and do not judge her but I have also come to find the way she dresses appealing. Chiuaua Man can say what he wants but I find her to be intelligent, attractive, and a joy to be around. The question I get most often though, "are you guys dating?" The answer? We are enjoying one anothers company and conversation, there is no fondling or kissing, so call it what you will. I think that sometimes in life you just need to not think too deeply about it and let things be. Such is the case here, I wont label this relationship with her, it simply is what it is. Labeling it limits it, I prefer just to think that were having fun and neither of us have a problem with it so its best just to smile and have fun.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Today As He Walked Along The Winding Path, The Traveller Reflected On The World Around Him And Its Inhabitants And Growing Changes
Quote Of The Day: "I love women...I love those emerald pools masquerading as eyes...lips...I love smiles and the yawns...the eating...with skin so soft...women are head to toe cashmere...a woman's skin inspires a man's fingers to have Magellan’s love of exploration..."-100 Girls
I think this quote is a bit of an overstatment of a conditional truth, however it does contain a bit of truth in it especially in the last sentence there. For centuries upon centuries women have been the fuel for the passion of man, even when his gods failed him. In the light of an ever darkening world it is love that will prove the pivital point upon which man will either flourish of fall deep into the mouth of extinction. Today sciences and technologies are growing rapidly and our world is becoming vastly different before our very eyes. It seems that evolution is happening in giant leaps and bounds, advancements in all categories of science are becoming uncontrolled and racing ahead at rapid, even dangerous, rates. Artificial intelligence is fast becmoing a fact and not just a theory, nano-technology was once a mere speculation or a scientists dream but now the micro technologies are entering our everyday world, genetic engineering is as common as ever in our agricultural world, cloning is now a reality and not fantasy of movies past, the realms of science and magic have met and science has triumphed. While all this could easily be seen as mans achievements in the world and testaments to his ingenuity and sheer will, they can also be seen as the rapid uncontrolled examples of what man can do when he does not think about what he is doing. Amidst all this confusion of our 'modern' age it seems love and the old ways are becoming buried. While I steadfastly defend a persons right to choose their mates in whatever way they wish I cannot help but feel worried about mankinds future with a rapidly growing homosexual trend. Think what you might but in order for a specie to develop and flourish the key is, and always has been, pro-creation. Without children to carry on our genes as well as our thoughts then our specie would have fallen ages ago, but now as the trend of homosexuality grows and birth defects increase, our specie may be facing its end. Worse yet, if our specie continues to decrese its overall intelligence because it is not healthy in its breeding cycle, our technologies may yet take on a life born of their own will and face their creators and destroy them. This is not to say that being gay is wrong, merely ineffectual against the world and its grand designs and the survival of the specie. This growing trend and its overall effects worry me about as much as the rapid spread of uncontrolled technologies. Worse yet is the downfall of love against science. Love has many times been declared a mere compilation of hormones and endorphins. Love is failing all around us, divorces are more common than lasting marriages, beign unfaithful is more common than divorce and last faithful marriage combined, and chivalry is considered to be an insult to women. Too often we talk of change in the world and how it is needed but too often we forget the benefits of being solid in our beliefs even if the winds of change blow against us. A return to some, nto all, but soem traditional values is needed. Damned be religion and her principals but we should endeavor to breathe new life into the nuclear family, moral ideals, and the love. Together we should force out the ideas of hate and unfaithfulness, weed out as many of those who seek to eradicate the lives of others and restore peace to the forefront of society. And we should try to understand and accept homosexuality yet minimize it to as small a number as possible. Encourage the acceptance of all groups but those who hold down the specie should be minimized but accepted as we would accept anything else.
SVS
I think this quote is a bit of an overstatment of a conditional truth, however it does contain a bit of truth in it especially in the last sentence there. For centuries upon centuries women have been the fuel for the passion of man, even when his gods failed him. In the light of an ever darkening world it is love that will prove the pivital point upon which man will either flourish of fall deep into the mouth of extinction. Today sciences and technologies are growing rapidly and our world is becoming vastly different before our very eyes. It seems that evolution is happening in giant leaps and bounds, advancements in all categories of science are becoming uncontrolled and racing ahead at rapid, even dangerous, rates. Artificial intelligence is fast becmoing a fact and not just a theory, nano-technology was once a mere speculation or a scientists dream but now the micro technologies are entering our everyday world, genetic engineering is as common as ever in our agricultural world, cloning is now a reality and not fantasy of movies past, the realms of science and magic have met and science has triumphed. While all this could easily be seen as mans achievements in the world and testaments to his ingenuity and sheer will, they can also be seen as the rapid uncontrolled examples of what man can do when he does not think about what he is doing. Amidst all this confusion of our 'modern' age it seems love and the old ways are becoming buried. While I steadfastly defend a persons right to choose their mates in whatever way they wish I cannot help but feel worried about mankinds future with a rapidly growing homosexual trend. Think what you might but in order for a specie to develop and flourish the key is, and always has been, pro-creation. Without children to carry on our genes as well as our thoughts then our specie would have fallen ages ago, but now as the trend of homosexuality grows and birth defects increase, our specie may be facing its end. Worse yet, if our specie continues to decrese its overall intelligence because it is not healthy in its breeding cycle, our technologies may yet take on a life born of their own will and face their creators and destroy them. This is not to say that being gay is wrong, merely ineffectual against the world and its grand designs and the survival of the specie. This growing trend and its overall effects worry me about as much as the rapid spread of uncontrolled technologies. Worse yet is the downfall of love against science. Love has many times been declared a mere compilation of hormones and endorphins. Love is failing all around us, divorces are more common than lasting marriages, beign unfaithful is more common than divorce and last faithful marriage combined, and chivalry is considered to be an insult to women. Too often we talk of change in the world and how it is needed but too often we forget the benefits of being solid in our beliefs even if the winds of change blow against us. A return to some, nto all, but soem traditional values is needed. Damned be religion and her principals but we should endeavor to breathe new life into the nuclear family, moral ideals, and the love. Together we should force out the ideas of hate and unfaithfulness, weed out as many of those who seek to eradicate the lives of others and restore peace to the forefront of society. And we should try to understand and accept homosexuality yet minimize it to as small a number as possible. Encourage the acceptance of all groups but those who hold down the specie should be minimized but accepted as we would accept anything else.
SVS
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
The Wound Was Healing And The Surface Pain Lessened, But The Bruise And Its Ache Remained
Quote Of The Day: "...things never turn out the way you think they will. -Michael Chrichtons's Prey
How inherently true, things hardly ever turn out even close to what you were expecting them too. This isnt always a bad thing, much of the time things have the opportunity of going much better then we expect them too and then we are pleasently surprised. But it is the times when we are un-pleasently surprised that sticks with us the longest. Extremities on either side of a thing are things to be avoided. One should never hope for an extreme in any situation, especially in that of romance or life. Sometimes people stop to take stock of their life thus far and they turn back to look at what had been, what is going to be, and what is. In that process we sometimes see that the people around us are not what we remember or what we expect them to be. Ocassionally a person goes through an extraordinary change and everything about them is no longer the same, and for some reason the two of you no longer get along. Other times the person changes slowly (as they should) except for one thign about them and the drastic change of that one thing is enough to damage your personal relationship. Still there are time when a person does not change at all and they are stuck in a cycle of their life and that too destroys or damages your relationship.
On a related note, I must admit to all of you that lately I have not been as open with my blogs as I have been in the past. Mainly this is because they are nto always about me alone and I want to respect the privacy of the others it may involve. Although if you believe yourself tob e a close friend and want to offer advice or just talk then do feel free to talk to me privately. If you are nto always available to speak through the net or do not have continual net access then do feel free to call me when you wish. (541)290-4752 or you may mail me the old way at
Shawn V. Stengar
P.O. Box 649
North Bend Or, 97459
I would love to talk to any of you, especially those few who I have had great philisophical discussions with and those of you whom I have been able to share my views on sex and romatiscism.
How inherently true, things hardly ever turn out even close to what you were expecting them too. This isnt always a bad thing, much of the time things have the opportunity of going much better then we expect them too and then we are pleasently surprised. But it is the times when we are un-pleasently surprised that sticks with us the longest. Extremities on either side of a thing are things to be avoided. One should never hope for an extreme in any situation, especially in that of romance or life. Sometimes people stop to take stock of their life thus far and they turn back to look at what had been, what is going to be, and what is. In that process we sometimes see that the people around us are not what we remember or what we expect them to be. Ocassionally a person goes through an extraordinary change and everything about them is no longer the same, and for some reason the two of you no longer get along. Other times the person changes slowly (as they should) except for one thign about them and the drastic change of that one thing is enough to damage your personal relationship. Still there are time when a person does not change at all and they are stuck in a cycle of their life and that too destroys or damages your relationship.
On a related note, I must admit to all of you that lately I have not been as open with my blogs as I have been in the past. Mainly this is because they are nto always about me alone and I want to respect the privacy of the others it may involve. Although if you believe yourself tob e a close friend and want to offer advice or just talk then do feel free to talk to me privately. If you are nto always available to speak through the net or do not have continual net access then do feel free to call me when you wish. (541)290-4752 or you may mail me the old way at
Shawn V. Stengar
P.O. Box 649
North Bend Or, 97459
I would love to talk to any of you, especially those few who I have had great philisophical discussions with and those of you whom I have been able to share my views on sex and romatiscism.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Today The Travelers Face Was Hidden, But Some Would See A Black Eye, A Wound From A Friend
Quote Of The Day: "So nigh to grandeur is our dust, so near to God is man; When Duty whispers, low thou must, the youth replies I can." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Where have all good girls gone
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn’t there a gorgeous Amazon upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream of what I need
I Need A Hero......
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superwoman to sweep me off my feet
(Chorus)
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the end of the night
She’s gotta be strong
And she’s gotta be fast
And she’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
She’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And she’s gotta be larger than life
Up Where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there’s someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel her approach
Like a fire in my blood
(Chorus)x2
I Need A Hero
Indeed sometimes we all need a hero, or in some cases, a heroine. But much like the ideal hero, the ideal heroine does not exist in our world. The sad fact of the matter is friends that in our age women, decent women, have become increasingly more and more rare. Not to mention that love, or at least the old ways of love, are slowly becoming extinct, and a new form of love is rising. This new love is hollow and full of pomp and levels of dishonesty. Definitions of cheating are becoming relevant in relationships, where in the past cheating was once defined as the a man or woman giving intimate affection to another person. *Sarcastic Laugh* Now its filled with so many holes that you can see straight through this 'love'. Now, a woman cheating on her boyfriend with another woman isnt cheating at all, a man who has cyber sex with another woman other than his wife isnt cheating, a woman who kisses other men while on a 'temporary' cease of dating with her boyfriend isnt betraying him at all. If this is what love is then im afraid I have lost faith in love. What do we have to place faith in when we treat is so cavalier? Love exists in the world, just not in us. That is what I mean by a 'broken hallelujah'. I am just as guilty as anyone else, I have had more than my fair share of chances that I ignored when fate pushed me towards them. What brings this on tonight though? Where did I find this inspiration for all of this? I saw Spider Man 2 tonight with Mr. Happy and Ms. Quiet and it was full of romance and such along with action but at the end of the movie as we exited the theatre it was their I found inspiration. I saw Sunshine with her boyfriend, happy and hand in hand, it was then I realized that fate had tried to make that my hand in hers but I stubbornly refused what was offered. Instead I looked towards my eastern horizon with faith of the fallen, hoping for the impossible and wanting what couldnt be. So a fallen faith in the west and a fallen faith in the east, no one to blaim but myself and nowhere else to look. Whats a guy to do? Well it seems to me that if you cant help yourself then help others. And thats what I've decided to do. I signed up for the Peace Corps. and specified id prefer an African Assignment. When I finally get an assignment ill be there for about 2 years and 2 months. I considered military service instead but I want to HELP not hurt. True, military does pay better but the rewards of this are deeper and far better for the soul.
SVS
Where have all good girls gone
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn’t there a gorgeous Amazon upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream of what I need
I Need A Hero......
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a superwoman to sweep me off my feet
(Chorus)
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the end of the night
She’s gotta be strong
And she’s gotta be fast
And she’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
She’s gotta be sure
And it’s gotta be soon
And she’s gotta be larger than life
Up Where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there’s someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel her approach
Like a fire in my blood
(Chorus)x2
I Need A Hero
Indeed sometimes we all need a hero, or in some cases, a heroine. But much like the ideal hero, the ideal heroine does not exist in our world. The sad fact of the matter is friends that in our age women, decent women, have become increasingly more and more rare. Not to mention that love, or at least the old ways of love, are slowly becoming extinct, and a new form of love is rising. This new love is hollow and full of pomp and levels of dishonesty. Definitions of cheating are becoming relevant in relationships, where in the past cheating was once defined as the a man or woman giving intimate affection to another person. *Sarcastic Laugh* Now its filled with so many holes that you can see straight through this 'love'. Now, a woman cheating on her boyfriend with another woman isnt cheating at all, a man who has cyber sex with another woman other than his wife isnt cheating, a woman who kisses other men while on a 'temporary' cease of dating with her boyfriend isnt betraying him at all. If this is what love is then im afraid I have lost faith in love. What do we have to place faith in when we treat is so cavalier? Love exists in the world, just not in us. That is what I mean by a 'broken hallelujah'. I am just as guilty as anyone else, I have had more than my fair share of chances that I ignored when fate pushed me towards them. What brings this on tonight though? Where did I find this inspiration for all of this? I saw Spider Man 2 tonight with Mr. Happy and Ms. Quiet and it was full of romance and such along with action but at the end of the movie as we exited the theatre it was their I found inspiration. I saw Sunshine with her boyfriend, happy and hand in hand, it was then I realized that fate had tried to make that my hand in hers but I stubbornly refused what was offered. Instead I looked towards my eastern horizon with faith of the fallen, hoping for the impossible and wanting what couldnt be. So a fallen faith in the west and a fallen faith in the east, no one to blaim but myself and nowhere else to look. Whats a guy to do? Well it seems to me that if you cant help yourself then help others. And thats what I've decided to do. I signed up for the Peace Corps. and specified id prefer an African Assignment. When I finally get an assignment ill be there for about 2 years and 2 months. I considered military service instead but I want to HELP not hurt. True, military does pay better but the rewards of this are deeper and far better for the soul.
SVS
Thursday, June 24, 2004
The Traveller Felt Reflective Tonight As He Gaxed Up At The Falling Stars, Funny Thing Those Firery Stars Those Star Fires
Quote Of The Day: "I've seen your flag On the marble arch Love is not a victory march, It's a cold and It's a broken Hallelujah" -Rufus Wainwright (from the song "Hallelujah")
"Love is not a victory march...." Hmmm, how very true. I suppose that, at first, we all presuppose that love is some sort of triumph and that we celebrate its capture with some sort of massive parade of our victory fleet and from there on all things will be good. But how quickly we learn. "....It's a cold and It's a broken Hallelujah...." A broken halellujah? The dictionary tells us that Halellujah is "a shout or song of praise to God", well if thats true then perhaps love is a broken hallelujah. People will often tell you that love is the greatest of all powers, perhaps even rivaling that of the christian God's. But I agree with this song, Love is a broken hallelujah, meaning that love is so strong, so mighty that it breaks past and beyond any praise to god. While many people question the belief of God or "believe" he exists, we all KNOW that love exists and that its power is never ending and undying. However, as with all great powers, man chooses to worship something he doesnt understand and gives it far too high a position. Sadness and pain, life without love, are all things that are just as powerful and tangible as love. Why praise love when we can simply praise lust? Or perhaps pain, either physical, mental, or emotional? Because it feels good? If we used that excuse then we would hold high the marijuana plant as a god or morphine, even prozac. No, we choose love because it does more than simply make us feel good about ourselves, it binds us, all, in a very unique and very human way. Beneath the benevolence of love we are inexiplicably tied. The mistake we often make is that we go seeking or questing after it, the problem with that is Love cannot be caught or won, it is a lifeforce all its own and chooses its own time to come to you, providing it does at all. Sometimes love can even come to us more than once when we lose the one we love. No dear friends I havent lost anybody, but I thought that was worth saying. Actually I wish there were some things I could admit to tonight, but..............I just cant, not yet, maybe as a final action to something ending but not yet. Hallelujah. It is midnight and I need sleep but lately I have been feeling very very restless. Perhaps ill return tomorrow night to speak with you all more. Starfyre, if your listening...... accept some semblance of an apology? Jealousy breeds the darkest of monsters but sometimes we have no control of them, our want for the unatainable can be greater that our want not to hurt those we care for simply because we cannot attain them in the way we would ocassionally like.
SVS
"Love is not a victory march...." Hmmm, how very true. I suppose that, at first, we all presuppose that love is some sort of triumph and that we celebrate its capture with some sort of massive parade of our victory fleet and from there on all things will be good. But how quickly we learn. "....It's a cold and It's a broken Hallelujah...." A broken halellujah? The dictionary tells us that Halellujah is "a shout or song of praise to God", well if thats true then perhaps love is a broken hallelujah. People will often tell you that love is the greatest of all powers, perhaps even rivaling that of the christian God's. But I agree with this song, Love is a broken hallelujah, meaning that love is so strong, so mighty that it breaks past and beyond any praise to god. While many people question the belief of God or "believe" he exists, we all KNOW that love exists and that its power is never ending and undying. However, as with all great powers, man chooses to worship something he doesnt understand and gives it far too high a position. Sadness and pain, life without love, are all things that are just as powerful and tangible as love. Why praise love when we can simply praise lust? Or perhaps pain, either physical, mental, or emotional? Because it feels good? If we used that excuse then we would hold high the marijuana plant as a god or morphine, even prozac. No, we choose love because it does more than simply make us feel good about ourselves, it binds us, all, in a very unique and very human way. Beneath the benevolence of love we are inexiplicably tied. The mistake we often make is that we go seeking or questing after it, the problem with that is Love cannot be caught or won, it is a lifeforce all its own and chooses its own time to come to you, providing it does at all. Sometimes love can even come to us more than once when we lose the one we love. No dear friends I havent lost anybody, but I thought that was worth saying. Actually I wish there were some things I could admit to tonight, but..............I just cant, not yet, maybe as a final action to something ending but not yet. Hallelujah. It is midnight and I need sleep but lately I have been feeling very very restless. Perhaps ill return tomorrow night to speak with you all more. Starfyre, if your listening...... accept some semblance of an apology? Jealousy breeds the darkest of monsters but sometimes we have no control of them, our want for the unatainable can be greater that our want not to hurt those we care for simply because we cannot attain them in the way we would ocassionally like.
SVS
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
The Traveler Seemed Rather Annoyed By The Sounds Of The Village Below So He Ignored It And Found A Path Around It
Quote Of The Day- "Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never."
-Charles Caleb Colton
A ridiculous quote if ever there was one. Such sentiment is utter nonsense. Maybe im just a bitter young writer but it seems to me that friendship ends up in love or anything of the kind because no decent friendship has enough strength to survive if it has to be moved into love, its too hard on the participants and anybody who tells you different just hasnt hit the edge yet, give em time cause they will. Certainly starting off as lovers and hoping to grow into love is nonsense because thats starting off with false pretenses. So what is the conclusion we make from this then? Love is a state of intoxicated mind, not alsohol intoxication neccessairly but intoxication none the less. Love is not really real, its more like a dream you have at night, it may seem real and it may seem like you truly experience it but thats simply not true, its a deception. And before three or four of you decide to get all grumbly and start arguing with me sit yourself back down and shut up, think about it with an open mind first or ill not listen to your prattle. Yeah im cranky and bitter tonight and I have every reason to be.
Lets talk about something else that's been buggin me lately. I have friends on both sides of this issue so I like to stay in the middle. Anyway, Gay and Lesbian rights.....yeah I know its contraversial. I cant stand these conservatives who say its sick and shouldnt be allowed....yadda yadda yadda wela ll know that song and dance. However I can stand these Gay and Lesbian cololitions that think by marching down a street anouncing their sexual preference is very intelligent either. We all know the arguments and defences for both but why is it no one looks at this practically? To the conservatives I say, ignore it and leave them be because its none of your business anyway. But to those of you that are now standing up and saying "yeah, its none of their business what we do in the privacy" sit your dumb ass back down. I give the conservatives all the right in the world to complain until you quit having stupid parades, special gay awarness months, special scholarship funding, and insist in anouncing to everyone that youre gay, cause I just dont care. Fuck whatever you want but do so in quiet. Now since this is my own journal and I am allowed to speak my thoughts freely I shall giv eyou my personal opinion on the issue. I lean with the conservatives in saying that its not 'natural' and it goes against every rule in nature, that the very nature and design of humanity is being pushed against by it, but so long as I do not have to participate in it I dont give a flying squirell what the hell you people do I just dont wanna be apart of it and Im not going to go to a parade and wear purple or put a little multi-colored triangle in my car to support you. I will, however, support your right to do what you wish in PRIVACY of your own homes. Like any straight person its fine and acceptable to makeout and/or kiss in public but stop annoucing it verbally and with special parades. As to the matter of marriage? Well so long as you pay taxes I think its perfectly acceptable.
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-Charles Caleb Colton
A ridiculous quote if ever there was one. Such sentiment is utter nonsense. Maybe im just a bitter young writer but it seems to me that friendship ends up in love or anything of the kind because no decent friendship has enough strength to survive if it has to be moved into love, its too hard on the participants and anybody who tells you different just hasnt hit the edge yet, give em time cause they will. Certainly starting off as lovers and hoping to grow into love is nonsense because thats starting off with false pretenses. So what is the conclusion we make from this then? Love is a state of intoxicated mind, not alsohol intoxication neccessairly but intoxication none the less. Love is not really real, its more like a dream you have at night, it may seem real and it may seem like you truly experience it but thats simply not true, its a deception. And before three or four of you decide to get all grumbly and start arguing with me sit yourself back down and shut up, think about it with an open mind first or ill not listen to your prattle. Yeah im cranky and bitter tonight and I have every reason to be.
Lets talk about something else that's been buggin me lately. I have friends on both sides of this issue so I like to stay in the middle. Anyway, Gay and Lesbian rights.....yeah I know its contraversial. I cant stand these conservatives who say its sick and shouldnt be allowed....yadda yadda yadda wela ll know that song and dance. However I can stand these Gay and Lesbian cololitions that think by marching down a street anouncing their sexual preference is very intelligent either. We all know the arguments and defences for both but why is it no one looks at this practically? To the conservatives I say, ignore it and leave them be because its none of your business anyway. But to those of you that are now standing up and saying "yeah, its none of their business what we do in the privacy" sit your dumb ass back down. I give the conservatives all the right in the world to complain until you quit having stupid parades, special gay awarness months, special scholarship funding, and insist in anouncing to everyone that youre gay, cause I just dont care. Fuck whatever you want but do so in quiet. Now since this is my own journal and I am allowed to speak my thoughts freely I shall giv eyou my personal opinion on the issue. I lean with the conservatives in saying that its not 'natural' and it goes against every rule in nature, that the very nature and design of humanity is being pushed against by it, but so long as I do not have to participate in it I dont give a flying squirell what the hell you people do I just dont wanna be apart of it and Im not going to go to a parade and wear purple or put a little multi-colored triangle in my car to support you. I will, however, support your right to do what you wish in PRIVACY of your own homes. Like any straight person its fine and acceptable to makeout and/or kiss in public but stop annoucing it verbally and with special parades. As to the matter of marriage? Well so long as you pay taxes I think its perfectly acceptable.
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